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Life right now has officially hit a boiling point that’s too hot; I’m melting away. My focus throughout the days now are shot, I’m more robotic in movement and speech than ever before. Just today at work I couldn’t talk to anyone, it just felt too heavy on my throat to speak (I’m more introverted). Then what would I gain talking about insignificant topics like, “So and so’s wedding went wrong,” or, “Real Housewives…” Sorry, I’m being bias but that stuff doesn’t interest me.
And then just today I fucked up on the biggest thing: I have no idea where I want to live anymore. […]
When I’m around normals, I feel like nobody could ever understand the amount of hurt I feel. So I come somewhere where nobody knows me. I share my pain. Some people look at it like they couldn’t ever imagine going through something so horrible. Others look and say “wow, what a spoiled brat. I’ve had it twice as hard.”
Only the dead are winners here.
Don’t we all like to lose?
I am a single mother of two… I just had to terminate my 5th pregnancy and I am only 25. I pissed of my boyfriend by using him and not talking with him, and he was the love of my life. My kids are spoiled and I feel like a stupid slut most of the time. My father sold me sexually from 5 on… And abused me emotionally, physically and sexually. My parents told me I was an accident. I was not meant to be here. I found myself skimming dating and sex sites looking for the man who I will never find. After the […]
the popes got it wrong
when theres no more ozone
we will see the falacy
with our last breath
we’re all going to hell
with no water to quench the smell
inhaled in a blind hurry
a dead man walking at a feast
and our apologies won’t mean a thing
the childrens eyes will shame every human being
each passive one of us a sentencing
but the law rarely gets you for doing nothing
what we have done
knows no logical bounds
we have spoiled the earth
we gangrape the ground
when our plans got botched
we just stood by and watched
we can not explain away
everyone knew […]
I was looking through my old writings and found this. Just thought I’d post it.
I didn’t lose.
I didn’t lose for sure.
I never wanted to consume
something so horrible.
I never wanted to get shaken
by spoiled thoughts.
I fought.
I fought for all the rights
that concern me.
I did not lose.
I won.
I won and kept on living.
My friends have lost.
I kicked them to the ground and broke their bones so that they may never want me.
My family has lost.
I sent them away in my heart to avoid the pain of reality.
My loss came to my form.
I have hit […]
‘In the garden by the swing sits a
A little girl oblivious of the love
And and joy she brings
There are flowers all about her and
Birds that sweetly sing of the
Joys of tomorrow that a certain
Smile can bring’
There’s a pool deep with water from
Which sirens softness bring and
The pool’s cool and dark with
Golden fish and other things
There’s a rock by a fountain which
Quietly sprays the air and soothes
The very quietness that is spoiled by
Me being there
While she plays with her fingers and
Touches face and hair and is
Surprised by the roughness
And the burnt smell
In the air
Looking all about her at the sky devoid
Stars there […]