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Square One

Should be dead

by jack86 12/2/2012

written by jack86

I was supposed to kill myself almost 3 years ago on my 24th birthday. I wish I had.

I can’t bear the knowledge that my ex is moving on with her life and happy and doing well while I am so tortured over what transpired. Losing her love is horrible, but losing her as my best friend–that’s what just makes me wish I was dead. I’ve been optimistic about life, and doing OK sometimes and looking forward to the long vacation which I just got back from. But now I’m back and all alone and feel like I’m at square one. There are times when I’m […]

12/2/2012 0 comment

I just don’t understand

by fakingit 11/27/2012

written by fakingit

I was having fun. I actually started to love life. The earth is fucked and twisted. Once I love life The world gets mad and makes my life miserable. I know I have people who care but what’s going to work? Them be happy that I stay or just let me go. if they really care they will let me die right? I dont know. Well i dont know what I’m doing writin this but I feel alone now maybe that’s why. I’m back to square one. I wanna die.

11/27/2012 5 comments

Back to square one?

by AfterL 9/16/2012

written by AfterL

I added 13 new cuts yesterday. I feel like doing more right now. I thought I was getting better, but I feel like I’ve digressed a lot since then. I haven’t thought seriously thought about dying yet. The cutting helped calm me. It felt good. Then I felt nothing. I want to feel good. I feel like I’m never going to change.

9/16/2012 0 comment

Fear

by gorette66 2/13/2012

written by gorette66

Five months later and I’m back at square one.

Jump or don’t jump?

I fear making mistakes.

I fear disappointing my mother.

I fear life beyond campus.

I fear not being able to repay student loans.

I fear the inevitable graduation.

I fear making choices.

People keep telling me that life is precious. Life is what you make it. But what good is life if you don’t know what to make of it?

They call me selfish. Suicide is selfish. You have no right to end your life.

Hypocrites.

I’m sick of the uncertainty. I’m sick of the fear. Why should I live for others? It’s pointless; they all die in the end. So no matter […]

2/13/2012 7 comments