I’m losing my daughter to her father. Her father who told me he molested her. I tried it to the cops, I’ve even called CPS. but since they can’t prove anything and he is more financially secure than I am he his going to get custody. I lost my job because of all the ccourt dates. My family is leaving state, the only support I have is leaving. I’m a shut in, my neighbors don’t even know I exist. I had a friend but they were killed year before last. I’m going to have no one. I have severe social anxiety couldn’t even call for […]
I’ve been struggling with depression, anxiety and dermatillomania ever since I was a little girl. I’ve been taking zoloft for a couple of weeks and I wish that I could take all 30 of them. I doubt it’ll do anything to me though.
I am new to the suicideproject.
I have been browsing the site, and I have seen some very interesting writing and many other creative things. This place seems like it could be engaging to me. There seems to be a lovely sardonic nature to the comments as well. I guess you could say that I am genuinely interested.
I have been struggling with depression for many years, and I hope to find some people to relate to. Please ask me whatever you would like, it will help me get acclimated to this site.
-TheGerm
That one thing we’re all searching for.
Whether you’re here because you’ve attempted, are planning on attempting or are just curious, were were all drawn here by one binding factor.
Death.
Death is not simple.
Death is not easy.
Death is complicated and painful, and explodes with the emotional force of an atom bomb.
Lives are ripped apart, relationships crumble, people are reduced to the most basic form of themselves.
It will make you feel things you never thought possible, do things you thought were beyond you, be the person you always feared.
Dying will feel like an eternity, whether your insides are dissolving from an overdose, or you’re blood is pumping onto […]
It’s a long story but I’ll try to make it short. My wife made some bullshit complaints about me 1 year ago and got a protection order against me. Well, the protection order ended today and I find myself still struggling with all that’s happened. I haven’t had any contact with her for the last year. I hear about her through our 17 year old son during visitation and thru my lawyer. I got served with divorce papers and the divorce is still winding its way thru the courts. That’s it – no “goodbye”, no “it’s over” or “we’re through.” We’ve been married 24 years […]
My life is a constant struggle for mediocrity. I feel like Sisyphus in a way. I constantly struggle to achieve anything in my life… but it never amounts to anything.
No matter how hard I try and scrabble out from under the rubble, it’s like my fingers get smacked down by a shovel, or run over by a mower… I can never dig my way out, never get free.
But at the same time, I can’t just do nothing either… if I just don’t try, I get burred down, covered more and more. Suffocating me until I have no choice but to suffocate or to lash out […]
I just recently was discharged from a psych ward. This was my second hospitalization. I’m still suicidal and have been for a long time. My parents told me today that I need to “try harder to be happy.” I’m just sick of hearing shit like this.
I just feel like dying, how am I supposed to stop all of a sudden. I just don’t understand their logic. I’ve been struggling with depression and self harm for about 8 years now (since I was 10 years old). And haven’t felt happy to be alive in about 2 years. My suicidal thoughts / planning have increased and became […]
There’s once thing that has kept me going through the years and that’s BMTH [bring me the horizon]
Their music speaks to my soul.
I strongly urge those who are struggling to just take a listen to their new song ‘drown’
It’s so relatable
This hits home so much for me. One struggling for so long when both sides are starting to crumble into one. One side the girl so happy, bubbly, full of life, always smiling or making others laugh. Then the other side of her. The one that cries her self to sleep at night, the one that cuts and self harms herself to keep her pain and emotions under control to keep her from crying out, the one thats hurting on the inside and feels […]
I’m a writer working on a piece of fiction with the main character struggling with suicidal thoughts. I want this story to feel real, to connect with those who struggle/have struggled with suicide as well as those on the outside looking in. I’m looking for stories and feelings, the details that make it real. Please post in the comments or email them to me at aj@merlynsquill.com All emails will remain anonymous.
The aftermath of suicide — Misty lost her son in August 2014 and is struggling to keep his memory alive, prevent suicides and to cope with the heartbreak.
https://todayistblogger.wordpress.com/2015/02/16/the-aftermath-of-suicide-a-mothers-story/
Hi guys. Today’s been a rough day. I don’t know what’s going on with me. I’m almost one-year self harm free, but today I almost lost. I was at my choir concert, and I was sad, I’ve been struggling with my depression for a week. But after our performance it was like all my energy was gone and before I even knew what was happening I had my hair clip out of my hair and right against my arm. I almost did it. I don’t know why. I was able to stop myself. But I just wondered if you guys had any theories about why […]
Tear me away from my life as I’m torn asunder.
Put on my blindfold and toss me into the dark.
Bind my hands up in chains, throw away the keys.
My blood and tears pool beneath me as I cry and scream.
Remembering what I hold dear.
I’m struggling to keep myself.
I hope its not too late.
Cause life is great without a care.
My heart beats but I’m enslaved.
My body’s numb.
I’m gone….
I can’t anymore. I physically can’t. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. I can’t be of use to anyone. I can’t keep my hands from shaking. I can’t keep my breathing even. I can’t stop myself from cutting my body up. I can’t love. I can’t cry. I can’t keep this up anymore. I can’t seem to care. But the biggest can’t I have in my life is how I can’t seem to kill myself just yet. What am I waiting for? Can’t. Can’t. Can’t. That’s all I seem to think in terms of. Was. I want to be was. I was struggling. I was suicidal. […]
Today is my 19th birthday… life isn’t appealing. I started feeling depressed after I moved when I was 10. Now, almost a decade later it hasn’t vanished. I’ve tried solving my problem but I can’t seem to discover the cure for lack of motivation. Everywhere I search the answer is to apply myself to a goal, pursue my dreams. How can I do that if I have no such things… What is worst is that everyone has the highest expectations for me. I’ve been branded genius by psychologists and could’ve pursued any career I wanted. This year I entered my country’s most prestigious engineering school, […]
I’ve been posting a lot lately today, sorry. I was just wondering if anyone still wanted to hear my poetry. Before people said they wanted to hear it but idk anymore so comment and tell me. Sorry for wasting your time. If you haven’t read my story, it’s not far down the page (there are 2 parts) so feel free. Thanks for taking your time to read my posts. I’m really struggling.
Hi! My name is Sandra, i’m struggling with depression, anxiety and self harm, and i kind of pushed everybody away when i started feeling bad, so now i don’t really have anyone i can talk to about how i’m feeling, i wouldn’t like anyone to feel alone so i just wanted to say that if any of you want to talk you have me here and maybe we can help each other through this hard time. You can kik me if you want to: worthlessgirl12
Hi. This is actually my first time to do this kind of thing. Like, asking for help regarding my depression so im having a hard time telling this. Im a 14 yrs old girl. Im really depressed. I cut too due to a lot of reasons. People see me as the jolly, cheerful, happy girl but it’s totally the opposite. Im struggling everyday. Whenever im sad or when i feel like crying, I just keep it inside, i don’t show emotions. For a week now, everyday i’ve thought of comitting suicide, i’ve searched on ways but, I really don’t want to end my life yet. […]
I don’t know how much longer I can take this. I’m trying to say no but the blade keeps calling. I hate it! I hate me, I hate my sexuality, I hate the names, the looks, the comments at school, I hate the preppy bitches who get their pleasure from my pain, I hate this!!!! I can’t take much more, one month clean and I’m struggling, Mary moved on, I’m lost, I’ve got 100lbs of pressure on me to be perfect. I’m trying but I don’t know how much longer I can take this. I don’t have any more distractions. What do I do? Who […]
Hello everyone!
I’ve been feeling down for a very long time and my life has been going downhill. My parents fight a lot and I’ve some problems with my friends at school + I’m obese which makes me feel bad whenever I decide to go out. My grades are also deteriorating. I need someone to talk to if you’re willing to hear me out here’s my kik hopefulmindset
have a nice day!