I was approached today by a friend about her supicion I was thinking about self termination. She lost her first husband to suicide and does volunter work for a prevention hotline a couple nights a month. I guess I was an easy read for her. It caught me off guard damn it and I stumbled. I confessed. What a stupid idiot I am. How could I have been so inept and careless!! It was a foolish liability to give away my desire/need. I hindered the time I had planned to make it so, by self sabatage. She offered to drive me to a hospital, like i would let that happen again. I […]
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Stupid Idiot
I have thrown so many signs out for years now that i want to committ suicide and the people around me are so self consumed that they dont realize how badly i am hurting inside. I just want someone to recognize a sign anything and just say that i care in person not someone from the internet. my family and friends are so selfish. i hate this and i hate my life. my parents are too concerned about their divorce and my friends are too busy with their boyfriends.. where the fuck does that leave me? stupid idiot cunts!