I’m positive that feeling alone is universal, but that seems to be the force behind my depression. Like being together with people yet being isolated. As if I purposely hold myself back from being alive or living metaphorically of course. To me life is punishment. ironically I am a hypocritical hypocrite. I say I hate stuff and then I do that stuff and hate myself for hating to do it will hating myself for thing my self. Did any of that make sense? Self loathing comes and goes a lot, but I sit here thinking of obscure ways to end it all….and I stare at my […]
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I have no bonds with people. I’ve been abused and alienated. Deep depression, constant migraines, always tired, can’t concentrate or think straight, memory issues. I’m chronically stressed. People are just rude and hateful and judgmental and prejudice. I’m in a town with very little opportunity literally just a dozen different places to work, with no transportation. I’m living in poverty which means basic needs go unmet. It sucks everyday is a struggle. Nobody to help me out, don’t qualify for state benefits.
My life has sucked since a young age. I’ve cut since I was 11. that sucks. my dad always brought me down and my mom said i was a mistake. Every night I hear them scream at each other. My sisters and brother hate me and arent afraid to say it. Im bisexual and have homophobic parents i can never tell. i have 3 attempts but none have worked obviously. i need it to work..i can take my dads gun once i find the courage too. nobody cares..i really want this.
am i the only one who felt worse once someone told me i had severe depression?
am i the only one who stays up late thinking because sleeping will mean its closer in waking up?
i know a lot of people are feeling how i am, or worse, i just cant stop crying or feeling the way i do. i wont to change, i want to be reborn so i can take away these scares that i’ve been told im weak over. i want to start over, new body, new everything. i want to go to sleep and never wake up again.
I really wish that I didn’t have mental health it trulry sucks! You don’t know how ur going to feel from one day to the next especially with bpd. Why can’t I just be free from all this pain.
its not about waiting for ðthe sorm to pass its about learning  tood dance in the rain 🙂
As I step into my house , I feel pain. I feel stress. When i’m not home , some stress is relieved. Â .
School ? Is a bully zone .. .
Life  ? Is hell . .
Me ? I’m a emotional mess
Scars ? Are beautiful..
You ? need to stay strong . ♥ . . .
>#IHateMyLife.
– Ashley . –
I hate life. What’s the point in living when you have nothing? I always have this weight on my chest and its so hard to breathe. I just want to scream fuck everything. I don’t want people to tell me it gets better, it doesn’t. I hate when people say they know how I feel. You don’t know a damn thing about me. I don’t show how I feel. And it’s going to stay that way.
everyone sucks, fuck you
Really sucks when you tell your family that you are suicidal and the first words out of their mouth is “you’ll burn in hell”. WTF!!! That’s the furthest thing from my mind when i’m holding the razor blade to my wrist. She did not even ask me why I want to do it and still hasn’t. That was over a week ago and I saw her today and told her again my suicidal urges are growing stronger. Even told her about my dreams I have been having where I go to my own funeral after I commit suicide. Still nothing. I am not telling my […]
Hello everyone =D
Aw…I went to psychiatrist this morning…as I expected he offered medicines for a treatment (therapy sucks)…I didn’t accepted, I just told him I’ve been planning suicide for months, he was very understanding, I didn’t think he believed me though.
Well, I’m going to do tomorrow, problably (it isn’t up to me, I need my family to go out for some hours).
I planned to inhale cook gas, which is very toxic because it’s not natural gas.It’s painless…
I talked to my mom, tried to give her some confort, get the things less painful to her, I know she will get hurt anyway…obviously […]
i don’t get it. why am i not good enough? why does he not tell me he’s cheating. he is. i know he is. he knows i know, so just admit it. why can’t i break up with him? he was supposed to be my sanctuary. now he’s my pain. i can’t go or be anywhere with him because i know what he’s doing. this sucks. can’t i get some peace? happiness? should i leave? it’d probably better – for both of us. he could be with the person he wants to be with. he won’t have to worry about hurting me. he can be […]
My name is Jeffery Eager. I’m a 24 year old who is tired of life. I have no friends what so ever. In fact, I’ve never had any real friends in life. I live in a crappy apartment that is a total mess. Life is getting so worthless at this point it’s hard to see myself going on for much longer. the only one who cares about me is my mother, who knows I’m suffering daily so I know she will understand my decision. I’m obviously still conflicted, that is why I’m here. Can anyone give me a reason to keep living my worthless life?
It has come to my attention that my disease is never going away. It is incurable. I’ve recently talked to a woman that is now 83, who has been on pills for this since she was 18. I’m 16. Never again can i spend the night, spur of the moment. If i miss too many pills they tell me my body will go into shock. That’s nice. I’m worried about my future, can i even have a child? I’ve researched that it may be complicated, depending. I have a higher chance for getting cancer. I have a chance of going blind. All these nice little […]
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