I need to build up the courage to do it

My opinion on this may be unpopular and please don’t think I am unsympathetic or that I don’t understand – I do. And I have scars inside and out that prove it. But I believe, and very deeply that if this is truly the solution for you, there will be no need to seek the courage to do it. After all my experiences I’ve found that if we do it to make a point, to hurt or prove something to others, to “get back” at those that have hurt us or if we in any way have reservations or fears to overcome it might not be right. This may sound somewhat extreme, but think of it this way – an animal caught in a trap may chew its own leg off to escape and I see this as an act akin to our attempts to end our own lives. Not out of desperation or fear but a deliberate and necessary action that frees us from something far worse than death. Of course we are human and we all fear death because of our inborn fear of the unknown and sometimes our agony over life outweighs our fear of death.

I’m only asking you to consider how much courage you need to muster in order to fulfill what you believe you want more than anything. When we want something deeply enough we know it is right and it becomes easier. Your subconscious may be telling you it’s not the right thing to do. After all, “offing” yourself won’t make your parents take responsibility for the pain they’ve caused you, and maybe you have some t hings left to do. I don’t know. Just food for thought…