You know what I did and you know what I saw. I know your going to leave me high and dry, I saw you telling her. Everyone’s telling you to leave me I know. I’m tired of the name calling, crying ,memories and the attempted exertion of power and control we have with each other. You win! And you are correct, I am nothing and have nothing. I am sorry my loved one, but I cleaned the house for you and did your washing so it won’t be too hard for you. Sorry mum and dad I didn’t want to leave you with this after […]
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Does anybody know why it wont let me type on my computer but it will on my phone and why my antivirus keeps telling me the website has a virus?
Anyone else sick of people telling them they drink too much? I mean, alcohol has been around since before written history. Do you honestly think the cavemen ever said “Ugh oog agga ooga boo boo.”? (Translation: Jack, I think you’ve had too much to drink.). I mean damn. When those motherfuckers wanted a woman they’d hit ’em over the head with a wooden club and drag them to their cave by their hair. And that shit was the norm. So what if I drink a bit too much a grab a butt that doesn’t belong to me? Motherfuckin’ human nature bitches.
Life’s just one great big illusion.
People telling you how to live your life, how to look, how to act, how to feel.
But screw all that.
We’re all the same.
Even if you’re always getting the short end of the stick and the asshole next to you’s rich.
Just remember that it’s all some big illusion, you’re the one who’s the better person.
Music qoute of the day: “America spells competition, join us in our blind ambition, get yourself a brand new motor car. Someday soon we’ll stop to ponder what on earth’s this spell were under, we made the grade and still we wonder who the hell we are.” – […]
I want to welcome you to your life. I’ve seen and filled it with my eyes, and it is pure. When you believe in something strong, you can be too sure. And if it’s safe to sleep at night…
I will walk you through your home and set your place. I’m still attracted by your smile, that rests upon your face. You don’t want to rest your lips.. So lets keep them speaking. I hear her speak to me..love
Oh she told me things I’ve set in stone, drove my heart steaks through the ground. I’ve up rooted..all I’ve known.
I know a world […]
We fought last night and the harsh truth came out. My deepest fears swam to the surface drawn out by his mouth. I begged and told him my fears and troubles and they were confirmed by telling me they were uncared for and deserved. My being, dignity, pride and any settlement in self were mashed all by his sewer. My place and image in the workplace shifted to the bad plain because of him and his embarrassing mouth trying all too hard to gain masculinity. I am uncomfortable in my skin, squirming with shame to get out because of him. Him,him him. I am apparently […]
My friend decided to ruin my life by telling everyone I sent nudes and that I stalk my best guy friend. I’m bullied at school by the popular girls who were once my friends. Someone made up a rumor I called one of the fat And now they harass me sending me pictures of how mad they are at me to my Instagram DM. People on my ask.fm leave comments like “how’s your ass so big?” And “are you staying back? You should you cock sucking whore.” Me and my friends were being silly and dancing in our underwear around my room and I didn’t […]
You’re birth exsist through my pain, fear, and loneliness. You’re always putting me down and telling me to end every bit of life I try to grasp on. You always echo the problems in my life ” you’re dad fucking hates you if you died tonight he’d kick you in the whole he digs himself” or ” she turned you down because you’re an ugly piece of shit you arnt good at anything all you are is a fuck up to society somebody kill him now. I try giving in to him but I get scared 2/3 of me want to die but something […]
I felt life should end upon the last argument with my spouse, who accused me of thinking I’m superior to him, that I look down on hime because he is a black man, despite that we share the same race; and finally, calling me the b-word, saying f- you over and over again, telling me to go to hell, and calling me a drug addict and racist. I do not take any drugs. My life as you can all see, is a nightmare, and death will be a mighty fine relief. If you are a friend of mine, please look out for my daughter. I […]
yes, I survived, It’s been one year tonight since the paramedics revived me, I was dead for nearly 5 minutes, spent several in a coma – most days I wish they hadn’t revived me, my life has gone into a worse spiral since. I’m more alone now than ever and the process a year ago has left many distant and detached… but I survived, I struggle daily to stay positive, forcing smiles, false hope – but it always seems to be futile. I wonder if it really is all worth it, major depression, a neuro-muscular disorder, and an inoperable brain tumor – got lot’s of […]
I can’t believe myself. 58 days I went without cutting. 58 days of suppressing the tears until i could lock myself in my room and cry myself to sleep. 58 days of resisting the urges with all my will. did I cut when my ex yelled at me and told me he wished I would just fucking die? Did I cut when my uncle killed himself? Did I cut on any of those days when life was just too much for me to get out of bed, but I had to force myself to because if I didn’t who would take care of my brothers? […]
Hello,
I’m basically doing this out of desperation. Please I don’t want some Gandhi and tell me how exactly to live I just need another, more sane insight on my problem. I have a boyfriend, he is wonderful. He loves me very much, he is everything I could ever want in a guy. But with every story there is a conflict. He lives in a different state, and all we do is text. It’s nice to have someone but I can barely function.. I don’t even know why I’m telling the internet this. I’m just.. out if options I’m tired and.. sorry.
-M
Hi, i guess i just need to vent. I am so tired of fightin urges to destroy myself. Will be 4 8soon. Have been fighting this my whole life. I come from a family of major abuse, riddled with mental illnesss – schizophrenia, borderline personality, addiction. I have complex PTSD that never got ack.owledged – I just got meds which didn`t work and ruined my health. Had my brain shocked. I’m disabled now and completely isolated. My friends got tired of me being depressed a.d I got tired of them telling me, “Hang in there, it will get better.
Last week a neighbor left me a […]
How do I say bye to the one and only person that I believe when she says I love you? In my suicide note I ask her to never cry for me I beg her so much in the note that this is the best thing for me. I just wanna know how I can say bye in person when I see her today. It’s gonna be the last time I ever see her and when me and her are done hanging out idk how I’m gonna hold my tears in when I’m hugging her goodbye knowing that she has no idea it’s gonna be […]
This is beginning to be too much. The world has been so dark and hopeless for the past year. I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me. I keep telling myself, “You’re fine. Get the fuck out of bed, and live your life.” only to discover that I have no motivation. I tell myself I do, but I don’t. After the stress, the tears, the panic attacks, the breakdowns. I can’t bring myself to admit that I need help. I don’t need help. I just don’t. I can’t bring myself to even talk to people anymore. Everyone thinks I’m mad at them, but ever since […]
There used to be a world for us.
A place to go after paying a monthly tribute.
A place where we could be and do what we want.
Where the struggles and injustices of the day just flow away.
And you can finally just relax and have fun.
But that world is dying; much like that thing you call your life.
That thing where you receive blessings of many blobs of insecurities that in turn spout out more insecurities.
Until finally an ocean is created and those who don’t fit the norm are left on the shore to be labeled as defective.
Marked with names that crash into […]
Well the honest reason is that I suddenly realised that I’m sick of trying. I’m sick of it all. I go to sleep at night telling myself that it’s almost over, just be strong for a little while longer take it one day at a time. But I can’t do it. I feel like I spend every second trying to just hold on. Trying not to break. I don’t know if I can do it anymore. I just want it to be over. Is that really so bad? I’m tired and I need it to be over. I don’t have anything left in me. It’s […]
Well, where do I start? I’ll start with the reason I decided to even consider writing this. Well while messing around on my laptop, I realized I haven’t left my room for a week, minus going to the bathroom, eating, and showering. After that I realized I’ve been in my room for a lot of my life. I’m not very close with my mom, I push her away when she tries to get close. I have plenty of friends, I just prefer to stay in my room and talk to people over the internet. I left my room last week to go on a walk […]
We are just suicidal people telling other suicidal people suicide isn’t the answer.
We all suffer
all cry
all depressed
all think
we are all just people
I hate how people think if you self harm or are suicidal your more of a special person or people don’t talk to you. Were not different we don’t have fucking three heads. Im tired of it all. The judges of it all, we cant be the same can we? Its like people wants us to suffer even more. But for anyone out there depressed or wanting to commit suicide just know one person will always be there. If not then its me even […]
Telling someone that they shouldn’t be sad because other people have it worse is like telling someone they shouldn’t be happy because other people have it better.