How do I say bye to the one and only person that I believe when she says I love you? In my suicide note I ask her to never cry for me I beg her so much in the note that this is the best thing for me. I just wanna know how I can say bye in person when I see her today. It’s gonna be the last time I ever see her and when me and her are done hanging out idk how I’m gonna hold my tears in when I’m hugging her goodbye knowing that she has no idea it’s gonna be the last time she ever hugs me sees me or speaks to me.. Untill she gets my text after I leave saying my final good byes telling her how much I love her and how much she means to me on my life. I hope she can understand why I have to do this
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You can with your best efforts try to comfort and make her understand why you came to making this choice. But death, regardless of the manner, leaves a lot of questioning, pain, guilt and alot of unresolved matters for the ones around you. Though we bear no liability for another’s emotions or judgments regarding the desicions we make for ourselves, it is considerate to give thought to how they will feel regarding the aftermath of your choice. Becuase in truth, they will be the ones left to make sense of the broken pieces and try to put them together in their best efforts to move on and find understanding.
Maybe you can utilize this time with her to give her insight as to how you feel and possibly ask for help. I am more than sure she will do anything to help you, especially if she can tell you she loves you. Let her help you so instead of telling her goodbye, you both can tell pain goodbye and move on.
I wish you the best of luck in whatever choice you may make. Take care.
Thank you but when we hang out I’m lnna act like nothing wrong but after I leave I’m gonna hug her bye tell her I love you she’s gonna say it back as usually but then once I get to the spot where I wanna pull the trigger I’m gonna send her a goodbye text. But by the time she reads the first sentences it’s gonna be to late. I really just want her to be happy for me. I understand I have to think about how heart broken a lot of people will be after I do this. But it’s either they get heart broken from my suicide but then eventually understand that this is what I wanted. Or I don’t kill myself and still deal with the same misery iv went though since I was 8 I’m 22 now that’s 14 years of crying myself to sleep every night and crying as soon as I wake up since god didn’t answer my wish to die in my sleep. That’s 14 years of me thinking about dying everyday I swear to you not one day passes by in those 14 years that I didn’t think about suicide. It’s stopped me from living my life. Tbh I can say I never truly lived life yet. I just hope god forgives me from what I’l decided to do
You could maybe lie and say you’re going away for a very long time-say you got a job in another country or something and then you have a chance to say your final goodbyes. But if you’re as close as you are already, she already knows that you love her.
There’s a girl I also love who loves me and I know she’ll be very heart-broken when I’m gone. I want to prepare her for that but without letting her know. I just want her to live her life and be happy and not worry about me.
Yea same here. This girl is close to me and my family she would know that’s not true. I was just planning on texting her my suicide note dedicated to her telling her I’m gonna kill myself today and I need her to be happy for me. I just know she’s not gonna handle it well at all but I can’t keep suffering she already knows iv been misrable for years now so it’s not like it’ll be a shock to her. But she’s gonna cry I know she will even tho I beg her not to I know she will because she told me I mean so much to her and have no idea how much she loves me and she said
“Your the only person who makes m truly smile and not a fake one” and I just ask her to keep hat true smile for me since I will no longer be suffering. I also ask her if she does cry to one day forgive me for hurting her so much to the point where she cried I hope she just doesn’t cry yet I see her in about a hour and I’m scared I’m not gonna be able to hold it in when I look her in the eyes
I’m not a proponent of “good” lies. Regardless of what story you concoct to divert her from the immediate truth, she will eventually learn what you’ve done one way or another, especially if she truly and honestly cares for you. I really understand your struggle with long-term suffering. I’ve been in severe physical and emotional pain and what feels like insufferable anguish for most of my life and dealing with debilitating physical pain for almost 25 years. I struggle with wanting to die more than anything now but I can honestly tell you that if I didn’t have the one friend I can confide in honestly and transparently I would have given up long ago. If nothing else, she listens without judging, and I don’t have any expectations that she will solve my problems – just knowing I can talk with her is one of the most valuable things I have left in my life.
I think given you know your friend genuinely cares for you the bests thing you could do is confide in her and give her the opportunity to at least just listen to how you feel. It’s risky, there’s no doubt about that – she could react to your ideations of suicide and try to intervene but if you love and trust her, and if you are honest with her about needing to talk transparently and be clear that you just need her to listen she can really help you to feel empowered and begin a healing process. This may all sound like bullshit to you but if nothing else you can spare her the deeper pain of being lied to and the guilt she may suffer the rest of her life from the knowledge that you ultimately didn’t trust her enough to confide in her about your desire to die.
There is never an easy answer but choosing the right path can make a huge difference for both of you.
She already knows my struggle iv talked to her about it before. She tried her best to talk to me out if it and it helped for that moment but then the next day I still have the same problems. I’m past the talking to someone advice it just doesn’t work for me nothing worked for me. Like I’m gonna tell her in my suicide note that I’m gonna text her “this is how I’m meant to die, this is what I truly believe god wants”