i hope this week i really do it. to all on this website who have encouraged me: thank you so much. I will probably wuss out and be here again next week 😛 If for some reason i actually do it, i love u all, and i hope to see you all in heaven.
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Today marks the first day i wrote my first entry on this website. I read through all my entrys and cried at who the person i was a year ago. i still feel horrible, but im slowly learning how to deal with these emotions, and beginning to become a happier and grateful person. most definitly i wake up some day wishing i wasnt alive but at the end of the day i some how find some sunshine in the grey days.
The thing what really made my cry while reading over my entries, was the comments from such amazing people that i have no connection […]
Believe it or not but i am only 13. I might as well begin with I have attempted suicide numerous amount of times; Cutting, Hanging an this might sound ridiculous but putting a knife in a toaster. Every time it ended up with me getting hurt and my mother covering it up as she thought if anyone knew i would be taken away from her. My Mother is mentally ill might i add (bipolar and depression). I myself have depression and it brings me down like a ton of bricks (correct me if i am using that phrase wrong) it brings me down to states […]
Dear mother,
I really really don’t like you. But I’m trying hard not to say “I hate you.” But thank you so much for making my life a living hell sometimes. Thank you so much for making me go into actual depression. Thank you so much for controlling my life. Thank you so much for threatening to punish me for the things I don’t do, instead of thanking me for the stuff that I actually do for you. And the list can continue. But instead of continuing, I’m just going to say you’re welcome for leaving you in the dark about all of this because there is no doubt that you are actually happier this way. […]
I haven’t been on here in maybe a year? I would like to say that i was goin through the worst part in my life thus far, and last month my Dr. took me off ALL my medication. That’s right people, no more horsepills, iron pills, or steroids for this girl! I get depressed still from time to time, but it’s much more controllable. This site has helped me vent everything I couldn’t say before. My weight came back, my boobs came back, all the steroid acne went away and i am back to being the blonde that everyone checked out. My self confidence has […]
Hello everyone,
I know this question has been asked here before, but I wanted to ask it again now to see if I could get some updated information anyway. I hope you don’t mind.
Does anyone here have any experience with Zoloft / Sertraline / Lustral that you would be willing to share with me? I tried some other anti-depressants a couple of years ago, but they turned me into a “zombie”, so I’m wary of trying again — so I thought I’d come here to look for some help or advice. Thank you in advance.
Hey i wanted to thank you guys who were supporting me on this site. i was wondering if anyone wanted to tal my email is conduit28@gmail.com . could really talk to someone now
Anyone Who Saw My Post Last Night or If You Didn’t Stop and Read This Please if You are feeling suicidal
by That1guy94
written by That1guy94
First off I want to say thank you for all the people or most of the people who could understand and took time to be with me last night. I felt good when I was close to leaving that you people really cared even though you don’t know me. So thank you for that. And for that one person who was rude and inconsiderate please don’t comment. But I am going to stay positive.
So as you all know I hit rock bottom last night and couldn’t do it anymore. And I couldn’t take living anymore. So I acted. Not like other times where I was […]
I need to go to the rural.
Thank you family, my path to heal.
Seven bills, to save my life.
I’m still down for the band.
I’ll buy the bass. Will it rise in horizon.
The sacred dragon. You all, the mystical guiding stars.
The helm to navigate, to the shore of the golden.
Enlighten. Mystery. Organism, as you.
The dream. For me. To save, an ill-dying young man.
I seek the same as you all but stranger, I suppose. My blasted n- ……
Wrote this last night, just need to get it out of the way.
sighduck
Then I’m either gone, or I’ve gotten better and no longer use the site. I usually change this posts publish date so I haven’t been on for about a week, if you see this. I just want to thank all of you, for helping. And a special shout out to Shepard, keep on keeping on, soldier. I really do mean it when I say thank you. You’ve saved me from doing some really stupid things. And thanks for listening to me constantly complain about Alexis. Hope your leg gets better. Give them hell.
Well I feel today is the day I end my life. I just got rid of a person out of my life who was there but wasn’t much anymore. I made a promise awhile ago that I wouldn’t do anything to myself. Well I got rid of her out of my life that way she wouldn’t blame herself for this. So I feel it’s time I end it today. Thank you everyone for all the help and support
AN: Another poem here. Thank you for taking the time to read this. The ironic thing about this poem though is that I don’t drink and yet I’m writing about that.Great if someone reviewed, to all those out there who likes to drink, does this poem connect with anyone of you?
Round and round the roulette goes,
will it stop or will it blow?
Slipping into oblivion,
it’s time to drink like the Russians and let go.
It’s time to drink your worth,
and bet your all in this one barrel,
a single shot,
and you might finally get to rot.
Heave ho and we go,
drinking till the sun goes down,
drinking our fill till […]
Hello again,
So I’m beginning to understand why people post here. It makes you feel less crazy. So thank you for making that available. Anyways… the pressing question I have is more of a story with a question. I was in the hospital a month or so ago and they had psychiatrists come in. They told me if I ever felt like hurting myself, I suppose suicidal thoughts would be in that category as well, to call them or come into the emergency room. I was.. inquiring if I should actually call. It’s probably a good idea.. but I don’t really feel I want to. Anyone […]
u all have become my friends here. i just want to say thank you. i am trying to get help, but i fear i may do something drastic before then. know that i gave life my all friends. i hope my girlfriend and son understand one day. im trying to get help, but i fear its too late.
Till this day I cry when I get touched there.Thats how fucked I am,thank you cousin.
written by lifeishorrible
Last week I went to the city jail for traffics that I thought somehow vanished.I was pissed cause I was acting all cocky when they pulled up.I was like why are y’all here were not doing anything here.They asked for my name,I gave It to them In anger,a minute later I’m being handcuffed & they told me I had nine traffic ticket warrents.I was In a shitty mode cause I was finally getting better & this shit happens so Is felt like shit on the way there.When I get there they started to search me and then he put his hands there!!I moved & said […]
Alakazam. Is my favorite pokemon.
the highest mind. the closest to the heart.
a jewel. a diamond. a vision. a suffer.
the fight. versus the world.
the countdown to nevermore, has begun.
I have no more weed. today, alpha. take me to the next stage.
flower evolution. we all seek the same do not forsake.
I seek nature in order to heal my blood.
I am the ‘thing’, a swamp monster.
Alakazam was by my side, thank you.
The time when I was out at sea.
I think I saw the obtruding shell of a Lapras once.
And it’s vast size shadow. It was quite scary.
Lapras is a creature of peace.
Tripping out on Gyrados.
Statement: Over. The […]
These thoughts might be just temporary. They might not be. But I’m really mad. So what’s the point of living if I’m just doomed to be under my annoying ass parents for a very big chunk of my life that matters to me? Here’s the thing I have these really big ideas to become more and more independent from them but they won’t let me go through with them. They think they know better than me but they don’t. They think I have no idea what I’m talking about but that’s a load of bullshit. I’d rather take away my own life then be with […]
The deeper I cut,
The more I cut deep.
Deeper and deeper I cut.Â
The more I cut,
The more often I cut,
More and more I cut.
The more scars I have,
The more fresh cuts come,
More and more fresh cuts come.
When there’s not enough blood,
I cut deeper and more,
Deeper and more I cut.
When my cuts stop bleeding,
My head starts spinning,
Slowly, slowly I die.
My eyes see blurry,
My eyes see nothing,
Nothing, nothing I see.
I lie down on the floor,
On the hard cold floor,
Cold, cold is the floor.
My heart pumps fast,
Not long will it last,
Fast, fast my heart beats.
My body feels heavy,
And then it feels light,
Up to […]
This new outlook, specifically for the homepage, the new way our posts are formatted in a “cluster”……… As a personal reader to the website, I always go through every posts that are on here. This new formation of clustering, to me, makes it overwhelming, and the appeal as a reader has gone down. The old homepage format, by all means, I think should remain the same. Everything else is cool, though. Thank you.
Just change everything back to normal actually. Lol. But leave the cool design thing in the background. Aw yeah.