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Thirties

Confused I guess

by cynical-sai 8/19/2013

written by cynical-sai

(Sorry in advanced if things are disjointed posting on my cell)

I found this site nearly two years ago thought maybe I should make an account. Each time I would be bogged down with fear that maybe I shouldn’t what would people think? After all I already get looks because I have to see a doctor on and off or the medication that has caused issues in the past.

Today I gave in the fear is still there however something I said last week gave me pause. “Maybe the reason I haven’t tried in a while isn’t because I suddenly want to live. Maybe it is because […]

8/19/2013 2 comments

Barely Making It

by darkmisery 6/8/2013

written by darkmisery

Iâ€™m reaching my breaking point. Last night, I wrote my letter. I plan to do the deed in August. I would do it sooner but I promised a good friend I would help decorate when she moves Â in July. Initially, I planned to go out on my 40th bday. You know give myself one last chance to make something of myself and turn this miserable life around but Iâ€™mÂ EXHAUSTEDÂ â€“physically, mentally, emotionally.

I got into a good college after high school but I ruined it by dropping out after my junior year. My life has been on a downward spiral ever since then. Â I’veÂ spent the last fifteen […]

6/8/2013 0 comment

On the edge

by apple21 3/13/2013

written by apple21

hi I’m in my late Â thirties and I’ve had enough I’ve been thinking of ending things all week , I mean I’ve gone through stages in the past, but I’ve been really thinking about how I’m going to finish things as in what’s the plan, I ve even written notes as well. I’m over everything I’m always under pressure all the time , I’m always pretending I’m ok and not telling people what’s really going on. I ve been struggling with addiction to pain killers , drinking too muchÂ and smoking. I’m just sick of struggling and I really do think its the best option I […]

3/13/2013 6 comments

Sweet, sweet slumber.

by xen 2/20/2013

written by xen

I look in the mirror, I say, loser, freak, fa&&ot, piece of $hÂ¿t. Â I say, you SUCK! Â YOU’RE NOTHING!

Every time. every…. time….

Sometimes I can say things that are nicer, kind of over top, or after. Â But I can’t not hear the hurtful words.

People said these things all through junior high and high school. Â One was even a Policeman’s son. Â Nobody did anythingÂ Not even when I was hospitalized twice for trying to kill myself.Â I’d just say I was fine, and nobody batted an eyelash to it.

It gets worse from there…. long story short, I’m in my thirties now, Â I still hear their words…but it’s […]

2/20/2013 0 comment