I hate feeling like this every day. I hate never wanting to get out of bed. I hate knowing that things will never get better no matter how hard I try. I hate knowing that I was doomed from the start to end up like this. I hate how other girls  whine and complain about how terrible their lives are, and yet they have boyfriends. Like, seriously, SHUT UP. At least SOMEONE cares. At least you have enough luck that guys are willing to be seen in public with you and you still have the hope of a happy ending. I have no hope. I have no […]
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Thousand Miles
I have been on a journey now for a few years. A journey of self-discovery is the way I like to think of it now. I began on my path through tragedy. My initial methods for dealing with this were vast; anger, denial, suppression – the usual, I think. It was only after a second life-altering event that I began to heal properly. Again, not right away. I was led into a darker existence, but I believe it has led me through to a better place now. I gave up on trying to ignore the immensely negative thoughts I had been having all along. I […]
hello, Â I’ve been sad for quite some time, I’ve attempted to commit so many times, so many different ways. Here’s alittle bit of my background, I was inlove, I had friends, I had a good job. Everything is gone, I’m not happy anymore, life has manage to take everything away from me. Did I cause this? was it my fault that everyone is gone? For the past week I have been researching on different ways to commit, I came across this website and here I am, making my first post.
I think I felt inlove with my eyes close. I knew it was true love, I […]
How I idealize: a certain member here sums it up perfectly. So I sat down and idealized more. And watched a very good film on the subject.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0477139/
Film teaser: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gn7GVNskKU8
It is about us. It is a beautiful film that is as funny as it made me cry. I don’t want to spoil it for anyone, you should just watch it.
This is all I do now, idealize my own death and who I will meet afterwards. There is a romance to it. And it’s not to get back at anyone, I just want to reach outward and upward.
My life (oh boy, the “my life story” […]