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Top Of My Lungs

Even Here.

by AscahIsBroken 1/21/2013

written by AscahIsBroken

People say that people cut for attention.

Many cutters fight back saying things like “If it’s for attention, why are we hiding? Why are we lying?”

But I think that it’s completely different.

I don’t want anyone to know that I cut. I don’t want people to try to help me.Â
But sometimes I fantasize about someone seeing a glimpse of my wrist. I imagine that they grab my arm and stare, shocked. I want them to ask me why. And I want to tell them.
I don’t want people to know.
But all I want is to scream at the top of my lungs about how much it hurts.
Maybe it […]

1/21/2013 10 comments

I really don’t know.

by amb501 9/9/2012

written by amb501

I’m sitting here at my computer trying to figure out what I’m feeling. I’ve gotten so used to the pain, that i’m numb to it now. I really want to scream to the top of my lungs, but then people might hear me. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

9/9/2012 0 comment

since I can remember…

by it_never_ends 7/9/2012

written by it_never_ends

I have hated myself since I can remember. I always thought I was worthless. I remember looking at myself in the mirror when I was 5 and thinking ‘I hope my face changes and looks better when I grow up’. I’ve never fit in with anyone and I cry a lot. I feel like my body is a prison and I would do anything to be free. Suicidal thoughts take control of my life when I am on a low. I can’t get rid of them. I’ve had these thoughts since I was 10 years old. I battle myself constantly and it’s exhausting. Only my […]

7/9/2012 1 comment

I swear

by whattodowhattodo 4/25/2012

written by whattodowhattodo

I swear if i hear one more person tell me im young and too naive to truly grasp what life is really about im going to go on a killing spree (not really, but im definitely going to scream at the top of my lungs) i have honestly had more life experience than most of the “adults” i know. ive had to deal with things most people could never even imagine, most things people would NEVER even want to imagine. Ive had to be strong in situations ive seen “adults” just crumble to pieces in. Who do you think takes care of the “adults”? we […]

4/25/2012 5 comments

My friend that is my suicide

by Suicidal 6/2/2009

written by Suicidal

” I’ve often thought of suicide as my anwser. But now i regret it. I Slit my wrist way to deep all the blood rushes from my gentle body as i lay crimped up on the floor i wonder if anyone even cares. My funeral was horrible no one even bother to release a tear. not one. No one came to claim me as there’s. No boys seem to take a look when i walk by they just go on&on about the measly lives of theÂ tiredness of the others with in the room. No counselor seems to listen when i scream at the top of […]

6/2/2009 0 comment