I don’t want to exist. please help me. I don’t want to be here anymore, i have two kids and a husband. i know it sounds terrible but before i met my husband i was dead set on ending everything. I saw love in him and hope and a future. My children are everything to me but I’m not good enough for any of them. I cant even get out of bed half the time. My pain runs so deep and i don’t think anything will make it stop.
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my heart goes out to you, god please help this soul. Have you sought professional help? I know it is very very hard to reach out for help. 3 years ago my anxiety misery pain got so bad that I lost my mind. I ended up in a public bathroom unable to leave a stall, lol. I had to call my dad to come and rescue me. That man was amazing. He came right away, came into the ladies restroom got me out of the stall and took me to the doctor. I got meds and got therapy and got better. I am not cured, I have mostly bad days, and a few good days. But I am still alive, still here.
Yeah I agree you should look to find counselor or a Pshychiatirist they can do a lot to help you.
Ive had 5 or more serious suicide attempts but Im on meds now and iving my life _ and I am more acive now then ever
i have sought help, I’ve been in therapy for 6 years, I’m 27. I’m currently on medication but i just cant deal any more. i live with a chronic illness that is painful and my emotional and mental trauma is even worse. I’m just so tired i just want to go to sleep and never wake up. i love my babies so much, i just hurt so much. i have severe anxiety and panic among other things, I was abused severely my entire life. I deal with everything in the wrong ways. I self harm, I’m bulimic/anorexic etc… I’m just so tired of hurting so bad that i need to hurt my self to feel. not even to feel good, just to feel anything, to feel alive. sometimes it hurts too much. i literally have a makeshift noose i made in a closet and as sick as it seems it calms me to know its there. like i have a choice even though its a horrible one. i wouldnt even want to go that way, i just don’t know how else to go.
It doesn’t take more bravery or strength to kill yourself than it takes to live with yourself. Yes, there is a certain honor and courage in suicide but living life is so much more difficult.
And if your husband didn’t want you do you really think you’d already have two kids by now? No, he loves you and they definitely love you. Because they can see how strong you are for surviving in this cruel, heartless world.