It has been a long time that I postpone killing myself for a week. But I want this to be over. Since I failed to overcome on myself I feel that I should finish it tonight.
I’ll be back to see your comments. If you have anything that can prevent me please share them…
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Hey, Im done with myself, Ive been done with myself for so many years, i always think today will be my last day, and I repeat to myself ‘i want to kill myself’ so many times throughout the day, so many times. Maybe we could talk a bit my number is 562 986 eight27zero
not much to say other than dig deep. dig fuckin deep — cuz when you feel like you’re running on fumes theres still some gas left in the tank. humans have an amazing capacity for resilience and an uncanny ability to shift perspective. i promise if you start doing things differently your perspective will quickly shift. in short, only you have the power to make a change. think of the laughs, and romances yet to be had and the people you have yet to meet. think of the good moments that are awaiting you. good luck
I say hold on too. Life is always changing. I don’t want to hurt me anymore. Because that is what we are doing. Saying, I give up on myself is a form of self-imposed pain. It is the most destructive thing you can tell yourself. Accept that it is okay to feel this and say this and have compassion for yourself for feeling this pain.
Have you realized that you are not your pain? That there is a beautiful and important person beyond this pain? I ask because for so long the pain and me = the same. But it is not. Look for that wonderful person you are!
As the poster above said, you have to go deep within yourself and find those reserves. Again, being kind to yourself in any way you can.
Take great care YOU!
I don’t know what I can say to prevent you, I wish I knew; at 46 I’m twice your age and have struggled with depression for some years. It can feel so empty sometimes but things can get better, many people have been suicidal and have managed to find a way out of it, I’m not promising anything, depression can last a long time, but the future is something we don’t know. Does talking help you, you seem to be alone, I know you’re in the US and it’s not your home country, I know I find talking helps me, I’m happy to listen as are many here on SP. The last thing I can say is that I hope you wait, that you find someone to talk to, that you discover, although you may feel there’s no point now, there’s a world rich with possibilities.
Whatever I have to say doesn’t mean shit if you can’t find the strength within yourself to say it *to* yourself. I’ve been here for a long time and trust me when I say I’ve had some out-fuckin’-standing advice given to me; but none of it meant anything, because I couldn’t conjure up my words to encourage me to carry on. This wasn’t the fault of those who gave me support, it was my own unbecoming for not actively engaging in my *own* strategies to get out of this hole I’d dug on my own.
Basically, you have to find it in yourself and DON’T give me that shit that you don’t have it in you, because if that were the case you wouldn’t have put this post up. So, grab your rifle, settle your rounds and STAND BY to deal some damage to those thoughts within you that continue to overwhelm you. It’s YOUR life, Private — ain’t no one gonna feel sorry fo’ yo’ ass, so you’d best get to doin’ the bizzo on your own. Echo?!
What are you waiting for? GO LIVE YOUR LIFE!!!
I think the fact that you are seeking words to prevent you from ending things indicates that, at the end of the day, you do wish to live.
Please feel free to share your story and express your feelings here. There are many people on the site who would be willing to listen. Best wishes.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)