I’m sure you’ve all heard this before in someway or another – I’d be daft to think that anything I’m typing here is being stated for the first time.
I just feel so drained! I met with a therapist the other day, and he seemed so detached from everything I was telling him! I’m desperate, not even going to lie. I’m not even looking for advice anymore, just someone to know that I’m suffering. No matter what I tell my family, they don’t seem to hear. I’m tempted to say they don’t even care, but who’s to say that they really don’t? Maybe they have problems of their own that I’m too caught up in my worries to see.
I’m clearly confused, guys. I’m a 20-year-old woman who managed to drop out of school at 12 grade! Top of my class, always ahead in assignments, always eager to learn new things, or challenge what I already know during tests. But then I just crashed. I let what was happening around me – mainly at home – get the best of me, and I simply stopped functioning the way I used to. I can say easily that 2014 was one of the worst years of my life.
I’ve been up all night, hopped up on caffeine, anxious as can be. Not sure what I even want out of life, or from anyone else. Maybe I need a friend; to quit worrying, and simply live my life without a care like everyone else seems to do flawlessly. I’m not suicidal, but I would love for my pain to end. I realized I was human a long time ago, now it’s getting ridiculous.
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Yes, psychical problems can sometimes destroy your life. Do you take any meds ?
Not anymore. Lost contact with my psychiatrist about year ago, and my access to meds along with him. But now that I’m setting things up with another company, it shouldn’t be long until I’m under something that can take the edge off.
I don’t say that meds will solve anything, but they definitely help a lot until you can change some lifestyle things.
I agree. 🙂
seems that you are feeling lonely. You may need some friends who can listen you and understand your feelings. Of course this is site where you can find some friends of common feelings, you can share your feeling with them here. Don’t stop writing. If you like feel free to write me to dynamicdreamer[at]outlook[dot]com . At least i can be your good listener and i can share my feelings with you. some feelings may be common. and you may think you are not alone.
Hi there. I’m Trey, the mindless gamer.
I’m in a similar situation with school, except instead of high school, college was where I flubbed up everything.. I failed calc 2 and physics 1 in my second semester of college, and then I failed them again. Was forced to go back home to the shitty place I live and everything went to shit. I’d start somewhat okay, and then I’d slip and eventually drop all my classes.. First time I was forced to reapply because my parents believed that somehow I could miss a week or two of classes and catch back up like everything is fine.. Had to drop again though, and everything became withdraw pass and fail.. Then was made to go back again, and take out another stupid loan, was purged on the first day of classes, and then, same thing happened, but I said fuck it and now I’m not probation.. I don’t plan on going back there fml…
Idk what the hell I wanna do with my life now either…
I have yet to see a therapist, but just wanted you to know that I’m in about the same area of life (also 20). Feel free to message me via email treygo47 at gmail, or on kik lyricalnotliteral
I wish you the best of luck.