I can’t even handle me.
I need to have this baby.
Leave, run, or whatever.
End it.
I’m only creating more problems with my existence.
If I can’t deal with my mental illness how on earth can I ask anybody else to?
My significant others don’t deserve this, my family doesn’t deserve this, my friends don’t deserve this, and my kids ESPECIALLY don’t deserve this.
I need to end it before I fuck up more people. I’ve already hurt family, my ex spouse, and one child enough.
Enough is enough. I need to get out before more damage happens.