I Think I Want To Die

It’s gotten to be a lot for me and honestly I think I’ve reached my end. I think I’ve finally decided that this is it for me. I don’t have anyone I feel close with anymore. I feel so distant and disconnected from everyone and everything. I’m being forced into decisions I’m not ready to make and I’ve been forced to grow up too fast. Suicide has always been an option at the back of my mind but I think I’ve finally come to a decision. I don’t want to live anymore. I’m hurt and I feel abandoned and I’m just not cut out to be alive. I tried and no one can say I didn’t but this feels like it’s over. I wrote my note and I’m not sure when I’ll do it, but probably soon I think.  I think I’ve run out of options.