Having a stupid time

I wasn’t even sure what to call this, but whatever.

I’m sick in tired of school, like really. I understand that ppl can’t rly tell the true gender of a person, but they just assume that you are a gal, or guy. Which in my case, is a female. No one wants to ask what you are. I dress so so very different from all the other cisfemales, you’d think that would show ppl that I’m different. And then there is the home, house, were you are suppose to be safe,loved, treated with the same love that everyone has, but no, I get treated different, my father and sister rub the fact that im a girl in my fact. In fact, my sister’s favorite word for is “woman”

I’ve had these thoughts for awhile, but I know no one gives a shit…but hey, why do I care… *scoffs*  anywayyyyyy I have thought about suicide so many times this week, and it’s driving me insane. How can everyone go around acting like there is nothing wrong with this world? I mean come on, it’s not even that hard to see that the U.S.A is a fucked up country…I mean really, it’s not hard to tell, I feel like Germany was so much better, and I lived there for 3 years.And now im rambling.. but yeah, suicide and being transgender has been on my mind for like the past week……