Why do I even try?
Why do I think I can get something.
I know I haven’t been through shit like other people.
But hey, I suck, I suck so much…
I feel like I’m stuck in a tornado…
but i’m not..
but yet i feel it.
It’s stupid really, I know..
Everyone told me to fight and shit..
eat, sleep..
i don’t eat.
Sleep.
Fight.
I feel like a ghost already…
Even if I am barely breathin..
Who woulda thought that me..
the smiling guy, laughing guy..
could be depressed, suicidual…
No one thought to check..
Maybe one good friend..
but yet so far […]
TransAlex101
TransAlex101
Hey People so my name is Alex or Alexander, which ever you wanna call me. I a, transgender, female to male, and I'm 15 years old, I like reading books, running, playing the violin, goofing off with friends, sleeping, eating(very little) and video games. I'm very different from people, I don't really talk about personal shit, to my friends for one, but yup, I keep things to myself, buttttt I will open more up when I get to know ppl
I don’t know why I’m here anymore. I’m a waste of space. I can’t do anything good. I am slowly starting to shut down. I’m getting tired of watching the tele, eating, sleeping, and reading. Everyday is the same, wake up, shower, dress, eat, make lunch, brush teeth, and then leave. After school, bathroom, school work (sometimes), tv, boredom, eat, and then sleep. Same thing 5 times a week. Weekends- wake up, play on laptop,lunch, laptop, tv, dinner, and then sleep. Sometimes I’ll sleep all day. I don’t know what to do anymore. Maybe I should go, but then how can I leave the one […]
I wasn’t even sure what to call this, but whatever.
I’m sick in tired of school, like really. I understand that ppl can’t rly tell the true gender of a person, but they just assume that you are a gal, or guy. Which in my case, is a female. No one wants to ask what you are. I dress so so very different from all the other cisfemales, you’d think that would show ppl that I’m different. And then there is the home, house, were you are suppose to be safe,loved, treated with the same love that everyone has, but no, I get treated different, my […]
I’ve been feeling so depressed for the last year, and I feel like it’s stupid to, to.. i don’t feel like I have the right to feel like this. I feel like i have the wrong reason to feel/ be depressed. I’m transgender, and bisexual, but also, i was raped for almost three years, but I feel like thats not a good enough to be depressed, I know loads of ppl have it so much worse than me, that i feel like an poser… But yet I have self harmed, for a half year, but rn im clean for but a week, Sometimes I feel […]