My life is nothing without her…. absolutely nothing… I am a worthless piece of SHIT that needs to FUCKING DIE ALREADY!!! I can’t fucking deal with this…. all I do is cut myself and bleed and bleed and bleed………Wrist side elbow to the hand is [FUCKED UP] and bleeding, it stings but not as much as my heart does every fucking day. I couldn’t even cut into the radial artery when I tried, not fucking deep enough…..I wish I’d died that day, it would have been the perfect “fuck you all” message to everyone, on my birthday….a month and a half has passed since then and I want to kill myself even more, fuck this…..I’m drinking for no fucking reason other than it’s bad for you so why the FUCK not..I feel like I need to tell someone what I’ve done to myself, tell them I tried to kill myself…but i’m so alone……so so lonely….nobody knows i tried to kill myself, well except you guys…… but it’s just not the same… venting helps a little bit, but I feel as if I can’t really get things off my chest, even saying them here, anyone else get that feeling? I hate myself….i hate myself…….i hate myself… i need a way to die..no motivation to live, nothing to live for, no motivation to fix things, depressing mindset makes everything worse, i’ve fucked college up, what’s the point….. i just want to die…..holy fuck my arm hurts…
~Oathkeeper…..
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I got the feeling mate .. I can’t shake that shit .. I can’t know what it’s like to be a cutter .. Never tried but I’m sure whatever you’ve done hurts like fuck . My sister tried to stab a broken glass into her wrist once .. As fucked as it was she is still living . Living with a fucking big scare on her arm though , But living none the less . I can’t help ya in any way but to tell you I feel the same way about everything you have said .. I too have fucked up everything I ever had to live for .. I’m trying to move on but my desire to end it all is weighing heavy on me .. Good luck to us all …
Don’t start, if you can be sad or depressed and try to move on, do your best, and really don’t pick up a knife, don’t start that….it’s not good
I lost her too and I know how it feels… Women are cruel and cold to people like us.
I think you should embrace your hell no matter how hard it seems to be. There is always something to do in our hell no matter how small. For example, I like to smoke cygars… and sometimes I read the Bible. It helps me to deal with the void in my heart.
Death seems peaceful but it’s not, and you don’t really know what awaits you after death.
Try to stick to life and do something small. Your suffering won’t dissapear, it will still be there, but you will feel better.
The problem is, sane people can’t really escape from their reality. Sure I have a few things I can do to sometimes get my mind focused on it, kinda like what Final Fantasy XV is doing for me right now. But at the end of the day, you have to look right back and see exactly where you are.
Well aren’t you a lovely person. Why don’t you….I dunno… not be a fucking jackass?
Fuckin hell .. Don’t worry about the trolls .. One of his comments on another post was ” This site is a BAD for the soul. ” . He’s been string people up all day .. He should try a soft fucking noose … How’s the arm ?
yup
reading my stuff he found me to be an sociopath schizophrenic + more nice things to say
asking if he knew what either a sociopath or schizophrenia was resulted nothing constructive
delete comments, +report this obvious bile spewer, this should not be the place for most of what he had to say so far
Just imagine …. There are people out there in the real world that are more lonely and screwed up than us — to want to spend a day here with all of us talking shit ya know nothing about . What a world of freaks we live among .. To call a snorlax a sociopath – what a monster .. ha ..welcome back to another day SP users …
it takes all kinds mellowmoods, it takes all kinds… and unfortunately, most of us here, are the suicidal kind. but….. we all see things more than the “common” person does.
You been okay lately?
Im already sick of your ass. You’re ignorant and arrogant and continue to make presumptuous and/or outright rude comments on things that you clearly know nothing about. YOU are a sociopath by definition. No empathy. No concern for others. Delete your account
I’m trying some new meds . Living a nightmare .. You know the drill … Thanks for asking …