Have you ever dreamt that you know someone who tries to kill themselfs. And it’s really scary because you don’t know if it’s going to come true. I woke up this morning with that nightmare and don’t know what to do. I’m afraid that I’m going to get that call or finding that I’m the one making that call. I look around and see that I don’t have much to live for, but I know that there are some that would miss me I think. And that’s all I can think about. I started thinking about it when my chior teacher told us that tomorrow night will be the last night we’ll all be together. I don’t want to miss anyone. And I know ending me life couldn’t change that because they would evenually forget me. But where do I go from here. The feeling just won’t go away and I just want it to stop.