Have you ever dreamt that you know someone who tries to kill themselfs. And it’s really scary because you don’t know if it’s going to come true. I woke up this morning with that nightmare and don’t know what to do. I’m afraid that I’m going to get that call or finding that I’m the one making that call. I look around and see that I don’t have much to live for, but I know that there are some that would miss me I think. And that’s all I can think about. I started thinking about it when my chior teacher told us that tomorrow night will be the last night we’ll all be together. I don’t want to miss anyone. And I know ending me life couldn’t change that because they would evenually forget me. But where do I go from here. The feeling just won’t go away and I just want it to stop.
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there is a calmness that is there for you, just for you, to find.
there is love in this life for you as well as happiness.
there are people out here that love you even though they’ve never met you.
it isn’t as hopeless as it seems, i promise you.
the dreams will come and go. do not fret so much about them. nothing is set in stone in dreams.
if you feel it may have to do with someone you know, just keep your heart open as your eyes and ears and be there for the people you care about (even strangers, if you feel like they need an uplifting hand or word or dance or even just smile).
whatever is troubling you will pass and you will find happiness. it doesnt have to all end because of loneliness and confusion and sadness. all of that stuff is nothing compared to the happiness that is there for you to find and know.
just open your heart fully and let love flow in and out.
you may find (and possibly even need) help through professional care such as therapy.
but whatever you do, do not give up on yourself. or the rest of the world.
as much trouble and pain as there is in this place, there really truly is just as much if not more happiness to embrace and enjoy.
you will get past this and all of these troubles will look so small to you in hindsight.
let the walls around your heart crumble down. dont be afraid to be happy. dont feel ashamed about trying to be happy.
you deserve to feel good about yourself.
you are a beautiful and good person and i know this because you have a soul and even in your short post i see it shining through like daylight.
you can do amazing and incredible things in this life and meet many amazing incredible people and share the beauties of life with them.
dance!
shine that precious soul out to the rest of us!
i believe in you!
please, my love, let these things that trouble you pass and let your love heal you and the world around you.
you will be surprised to find that creatures of all kinds will embrace your heart and not try to destroy it.
i know you hurt and have had things happen but we are here for you, the birds and the wind and even some of us silly people out here
life is beautiful if you will just let yourself see it
please do not end yourself, you are helping this world to be a better place.
we need you and we love you.
i do, at least. if that matters any.
get well soon, friend.
Think deep and hard about what things in the dream mean to you. Think about what emotions you felt, and about the person that killed themselves. Maybe you were from a friend’s point of view, seeing how it would be if you died. Or maybe you’re expressing your concern for another friend who might be depressed.
I’ve had a dream like that once, and not to scare you or anything, but the next day it turned into reality. It made me rethink my actions and contemplate what it is to be me and what my priorities in life are.
I recommend doing the same.
Good luck.
i have dreams like that sometimes. because inside, i Want those things to happen. not for a friend of mine to die. but ..i like imagining how I will die. my friends are normally involved in some way though, in the dream. how much that would hurt them though…
one way to help this…is to Do something about it in real life. start talking to the people you are worried about. show them you care. if you gain even a little certainty that they will be okay…your dreams may change to portray that. which is good. a start..
and continue with that. show them you wont give up on them. its very possible they will show the same love and concern back to you.
maybe find someone you can open up too. im here if you need someone. its all i have left in my life. listening and helping others. i help my friends..but no one helps me. if you feel like that as well…all you have to do is..open your arms up..your heart up..and just say. “help”. help will come. you have to let it come though.
if you dont want help. a feeling i also experience…wait it out. dont do anything you’ll regret. make sure you Really dont want help. and slowly…maybe just relax on the thought that…you dont Need help to be okay. some way…love will find you no matter what. it probably already has. and you may not feel okay..but help is just so close to you if you want it. i dont. not yet. but im waiting. im too scared to do anythign else.
i love you. im here for you. im sure many others are as well. please dont do anything rash.