I just don’t understand people. It’s like everyone else got some guidebook to human behavior and my copy got lost in the mail. Maybe I’m a cynic, but god, it’s just easier to assume the worst of people than expect the best and end up disappointed. My closest friend is moving in a few months, to a city four hours away. I know I should spend the time with her now while she’s here, but I . . . can’t. Every time I talk to her I just end up lost somewhere between crying and absolute detachment. I’m treating her like she’s already gone; it’s hurting her and not helping me, but I don’t know how to stop. I miss her and she hasn’t left yet. I’m happy for her — damn it, I will be — but the transition is hell. I never thought she’d go, and I let myself get too attached. So now I’m pushing anyone who matters, because if Cassy can go (leave me . .) so can will everyone else. A friend from work asked if I was okay and I snapped at him, “What the hell do you care?” and I don’t believe him when he says he just does. I want to, I want to believe people just care for no reason at all. But they don’t, and it hurts too much to believe.
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listen, this is why i care:
`You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ – MARK 12:31
when people say they care but can’t explain why, it’s because they love you and they don’t realize that their love causes them to care. people don’t just care for no reason at all, it never happens. please don’t think you have to believe that. people just don’t understand why they care.
talk to me please, i care because i love you. not the “will you marry me?” type of love, the kind that God has for us all. i hope that the world hasn’t made it too hard to believe that.
please contact me somehow, either through AIM(my screen name is K3TK3TK3T) or email, daniellopez2316@ymail.com
thank you, please don’t hesitate.
Does one need a reason to care? Nope. It’s something we give freely. You know you can still talk to her right? Through the phone, e-mail, IM, webcams, etc. It’s hard. That’s true. But it’s still possible and maybe eventually you can move. if you wanna talk, just click on my name and join. I’m Monster Hunter.