Why is it always my fault

I can understand how you feel, my very good friend had a similar childhood and it took her a long time to get where she is now as a happy and successful adult. I have faith in you, though, and you write like a strong-willed person. You seem like the type to stick up for what you think is right, and it seems like you are just wanting to be taken care of and loved by the people that are supposed to be doing that. If you and your sister are being abused, you need to get help for you, for her, and whoever is abusing you. I don’t believe that anything is your fault. I think you are probably a wonderful and very caring person that goes out of their way to please people, you remind me a lot of my friend. Don’t lose that compassion, don’t let yourself become jaded. Some people try to walk over people like you because they view compassion as weakness. I think there is a difference between loving someone and showing them love. Perhaps your parent loves you as they say but they are not showing it very well. I lost my wife to another man because we grew to not show each other love, even though we loved each other. Regardless, you need to be safe and in a positive atmosphere. If it is safe to do so, maybe you should try talking to your parent about how you feel, they might not know how they sound to you if you haven’t talked to them. If you are not safe with your parent, you need to talk to the authorities. Whatever needs to happen, you need to change your situation for your sake and your sister’s sake. I believe that you will get through this and I wish you all the best.

Love,
James