I would start with a bit of information about me (age, interests, blah blah blah) but that is just ego and unimportant, lets get to the reason i’m feeling this way.
I feel so caged and alone, i have no friends, my only family member is my dad, i have no love interest in my life as i seem to always push most females away with my “clingyness” but people just won’t grasp that all I want is to be loved and cared for, if I meet a girl I like I treat them like a princess, like they are the only thing on this planet… and that is rarely reciprocated which hurts…alot and i end up being avoided and eventually told to fuckoff, everyday i sit in front of this computer knowing nobody out there is thinking about me or that loves me.
My contact list on my mobile is literally empty, i have nobody to call when i’m feeling low, i have never done the whole “cutting yourself” routine as that is subconsciously just attention seeking.
Now people might say “get off your ass and get a job, it will keep your mind active and help you meet new people” now yes i understand where you are coming from if you want to suggest that BUT i CANNOT find happiness in slavery, i do not want to work 9 to 5 every single day of my fucking life earning pieces of paper to spend on BULLSHIT products i don’t want or NEED and to also be shafted with bills WE SHOULD NOT FUCKING BE PAYING AS WE SHOULD BE RUNNING ON FREE ENERGY BY NOW, do some research on
Nikola Tesla and you will understand what i mean, is that all 21st century life is about? Work, sleep, work, sleep and then get a pat on the back and some pieces of paper to go out and spend on crap? This is NOT freedom, i CANNOT be happy if I am never free, i swear i’d be happier living in the jungle with a tribe living off the land and TRUELY being free.
Ugh, i won’t go into to much detail about how we are being systematically fucked over by the powers that be, if only i had that someone in my life to make it worth living i just wanna be held and cared for and to be told i’m loved, I’ve tried dating sites…the majority of women there have no brains whatsoever with 2 line profiles and only care about themselves and maybe a lay..and then i ponder to myself “what will i do when my dad dies?” i will TRUELY be alone, we live in a council house too so nothing belongs to me, i will have nobody and nothing, he is the only reason I haven’t killed myself already even though we barely communicate.
Please…get me out of this 3 dimensional prison….NOW.
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I’m here, if you want to talk to someone who understands. I’m here for you, if you’re low. I will be all tonight.
Talk soon, I hope.
jon_vickers_@hotmail.com
i totally agree with you about the work and the sleep and the work and the sleep and the unbearable continuous cycle that 3rd world countries call “life”. why cant things go back to simpler days…
i’ve noticed that going to school is a great way to meet good people. i dont really trust online dating. school would be a great way to meet that special someone. i mean u dont gotta go back to school or anything, just try one class and see how it goes.
i wish you the best. if you need someone to talk to my email is: lien.121@hotmail.com
Just by reading what you have britten, you obviously are an extremely intelligent and bright individual. I don’t know what you expect to find on a site like this but I do hope with all my heart that you find the answers you are looking for in life. God bless, all the best for the future.
Haha, it’s like i’m talking to myself. I completely agree but you have to know= having a woman or partner equals having a job equals no freedom with a temp. solution…meaning the relationship will probably not be forever.
I have no clue how to escape the mundane 9-5 life,seriously…and to top if off it’s not even worth it working till you are 75 and watched life pass you by and for what?? BAH
I feel like that ant i saw yesterday in the toilet, i was pissing towards it and it just kept going and going up, and when it finally reached the top it DIED. seriously, i was like “hmmmm..is this me?”
Pffff, death is freedom indeed.
life has never been easy. trust me, 21st century life is a lot easier than centuries before it. the only difference is that we know better.
strictly speaking, life itself has no purpose. the same way there is no purpose to a mountain. life just exists and continues to exist by passing on genetic materials. one could argue that purpose of life is mere existence. (which i disagree with)
however, isn’t human life something special? we are (so far as we know) the only living creatures that know life comes to an end. we can almost conceptualise death. no other animal has enough consciousness to do so.
(what a sad, sad life those animals live, under the tight hold of genes, but heck, they don’t know better)
i can really appreciate life because i think that there is nothing after death (i’m an atheist). i really think that this is my only chance in life.
i feel the same way about death like you.
death equals freedom. probably total freedom from everything. i’m looking forward to it but i don’t want that total freedom just yet.
it is your life and no one else but you should make up your mind about what to do with your life.
whatever decision you make, i hope you don’t regret it.
wow… me and you have the same reasons except I don’t really care about finding a partner, like “YupYupYup” said having a girlfriend means you gotta have a job.
I’ts a shame though that if there are others like you and me, which I know there are, when where gone we will be labeled “to lazy to live” by the public. If there is nothing after life then I don’t want to waste it being a money making slave for the government… unfortunately there’s no alternative, sure I could go run into the wild but there’s no chance I’ll survive a long life and die peacefully there… The human body has degraded it’s immune system through the past centuries since we starting living in doors so diseases are developed easily nowadays and also because we use medicine the body doesn’t feel the immune system need evolving/improving in the future, get what I mean? If we where to someday start living like tribes again then chances are we’ll become extinct.
sorry for ranting.
I hope whatever decision you made was the right one for you.