Well, it’s 2:08 at night and I’m still awake. I’ve been in bed for 3 hours. I hate it when I’m so tired but I cannot sleep. I can never turn my mind off. I’ve never been able too. It drives me nuts. With my mind racing from thought to thought to thought………….it’s frustrating. Although, I’ve always been a “night owl”. But, not so much anymore. It’sÂ really not like it was when I was little. When I was little I could sleep for 6 hours and not be tired at all. And, I was a “night owl” because I never really was tired. But now, it’s not that I’mÂ not tired that keeps me up at night. It’s the fear and anxiousness that night brings to me that makes me not sleep.Â I’m not afraid of the dark. Infact, the dark calms me. But, it’s whatÂ memories of the night that keeps me up. Because alot of things have happened to meÂ at night. With me not sleeping well doesn’t help when I have school. Because, since it’s really hard to get me going in the morning, it takes me awhile to get ready. I am not a morning person.Â But there are many times when I’ve gone to school in my PJ’s.Â But, since I’m on summer vacation now, I don’t have to get up in the morning in less I have counseling. But, even on the weekends or on vacations, I’m still up by 8:00am. So, even if I have a chance to sleep in, I never do. I wake up and cannot fall asleep. Or I cannot fall asleep and then cannot wake up. Or I just don’t sleep. God, I’m tired……………..
Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Wow, I’ve just wasted person’s time by having them listen to me rant.