Life…oh how I loved the innocence of being a child.
I went through the ages of 5-16 a happy “person” (I’ll explain why I put quotes around the word person a little later) primary and secondary school were great, I had lot’s of friends and a healthy social life and was quite the extrovert character. Shortly after I left secondary school things went sour, for some reason my friends just suddenly stopped hanging out with me and decided to spread vicious rumors about me to everyone, I thought to myself “Fuck ’em” and decided to keep away, this lead to me losing contact with everybody I knew and becoming a recluse.
My days since then have been spent at home and alone in front of the computer, I started smoking cannabis with my Dad around that time as he knew I used to smoke it anyway while I was out with friends, I smoked it all day everyday between the ages of 16-18 to cure the boredom, also I like to experience altered states of consciousness.
Now, 2 years sat in front of a computer while high has it’s good and bad points, the good points were that I became very interested in researching many different things that I would never of contemplated while being the extrovert person I was before, bad points are obvious, I became withdrawn from everybody and became sort of afraid of social situations.
So here I am, age 19, I don’t have a job, a social life or a girlfriend, and you know what? I don’t feel the NEED to seek these things, which is bad as I cannot fit into society and be “normal”. I’ll explain more about why I used quotation marks around the word person now. Since I was born I have been fed the illusion that I am a separate entity to everything and everyone else in this universe, that I am this “Person” with my name, my race, my age and other unimportant things. My understanding is that I am everything that is, was and ever will be, separateness is an illusion, I am pure infinite consciousness having an experience. I have been imprisoned into mind when I should be functioning on higher levels of consciousness, constantly I am being told I AM “insert my name here” and that I am an individual, when deep down I KNOW that we’re all one, we are infinite love all connected to one another.
Now you may be thinking “whats any of this got to do with feeling suicidal”, I’ll tell you.
After coming to the understanding I have come to, 21st century life is all about imprisoning me into ‘MIND’. Everyday I’m being pressured into finding work, socializing with other people, constantly battling with time, everyday having new labels thrown at me telling me I AM such and such, what my name is, what my DOB is, what my race is, what my age is, what my job title is, what my personality is, when NONE OF IT MATTERS, I am infinity. So now I look ahead at my life, what do I have in store, I’m gonna have to work a 9-5 job for the rest of my life earning pieces of paper that hold no value to me which enables me to go out to buy products which are supposed to make me happy in some way and to also pay bills for fossil fuels we shouldn’t even be using in the 21st century as ‘Free energy’ was found a loooong time ago (google Nikola Tesla) and the only reason we don’t have it is so the fuel companies can continue earning money off us and to keep us in a state of servitude.
Everything in the universe is consciousness. Space and time in all planes of reality are only projections within universal consciousness. There really is no here or there for everything is at one place where Mind is. Mind does not move at all. Mind simply Is. Mind is everywhere yet nowhere. Mind is nowhere but Here, Now. We are all existing together as a singularity in one place and time. Everything is one, Here and Now.
Several events in different places that are moving in synchronization may actually be the movements of the same event. Imagine a fighter jet flying in the sky, with several video cameras recording its movements from different angles. Each recording is displayed on different screens. When the fighter jet displayed on one screen turns or moves in a different direction, all other fighter jets in the other screens simultaneously move in a correlated manner.
Every day experience is a projected reality where things only appear to be separated in time and space. In a deeper reality, we are all members of the same body. When one part of the body moves, every other part is instantly affected. Separation is an illusion. There is a dimension of reality where we are all inseparably one. When we feel love in any form, it has the effect of beginning to shatter that illusion.
When two electrons collide, they exchange energy and information with each other. From then onwards, no matter where one electron is, you will be able to tell the location and momentum of the other. When a change occurs in one electron, it will immediately be reflected in the other. You are always able to know in one, what is going on in the other. When you cause change in one, you cause change in the other. We exchange portions of our energy fields with each other when we come into contact, therefore we remain inseparably connected at all times.
Imagine the universe is an ocean and each of us is a wave in that ocean. The wave and the ocean are the same. We are the universe localized in a single point in spacetime. The soul has two parts. It is both local and nonlocal. Part of you is localized and part of you is nonlocal, and connected to everything. You are the universe, located in your body. Not all your thoughts, wishes and desires are actually your thoughts, wishes and desires. Part of them are the very intentions of the universe.
The spirit in me is the same as the spirit in you, and the spirit in all beings. Enlightenment is the realization that you are the universal spirit observing from a particular point of view. Each of us is the universal spirit projecting a particular point of view. My self is inseparable from all that exists, just as your self is inseparable from all that exists. You are an aspect of infinite intelligence, and infinite intelligence is the source of all that exist. Therefore you are the source of all that exist and you create your own experience. Everything is possible because everything exists within you. The same unbounded potential of the infinite spirit also resides in each and every one of us.
Your soul is the reflection of all souls. You are the Other. Without the other, you would not exist. You are defined by your relationships with others. You would need to describe the whole universe in order to define a single person. Therefore every single person is the whole universe. Your soul is both personal and universal at the same time. Everyone is a reflection of yourself. You are in a hall of mirrors where every reflection of yourself appears different. Others you admire reflect the qualities you most cherish in yourself. Others you detest reflect the qualities you most deny in yourself. Each person you see is a different version of you.
All the cells in your body start from just one cell. That one cell in the womb is fertilized, grows and divides into two. The two cells grow and divide into four. This process happens fifty times until there are one hundred thousand billion cells in your body. That’s where the replication stops. Just as a single cell in the womb differentiates into brain cells, nerve cells and retinal cells, and through them give us experience of the world, so does the single spirit differentiates into all observers and observations, inner world and outer world.
The whole universe is one reality which is pure consciousness. Pure consciousness is absolute existence. In the beginning the One differentiated into the many. The One entered into the many and became the Self of each. The being within everything is the One. When you merge with this nonlocal self, you become one with the Self of all that exist. The One is the Higher Self of all. You are the One.
So to sum it up, my life ahead consists of being a slave, to be another cog that helps the well oiled machine function correctly, I am forced to socialize and communicate with people who do not understand the concepts I am talking about and think life is about getting drunk at the weekend and having meaningless sex (Not everyone is an idiot I know, but it’s safe to say the majority of people are) I do not want to be a prisoner of ‘Mind’ I want to return to the source which is free from mind, and the source which is infinite knowledge, infinite love, infinite consciousness is free from body and mind, which means one thing..
I went off on tangents a lot here, and I’m not even sure if this is going to make sense to anyone out there, it makes sense to me, perfect sense.
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Yes, what you have written does make sense to me.
This culture does appear to give us the choice of being a slave or a whore.
I believe that I don’t have to be either anymore(I have served as both) and can create a life that I choose.
This life does not involve our current monetary or booze driven social system.
I don’t regret my time as a slave or whore but see them as an integral part of my life and who I am today.
Yes, we do create our reality.
What you have written is knowledge that is spreading.
More and more people are seeing through the veil.
It’s not going to be pretty, what happens on earth.
It is sure to be too fascinating to not stick around for.
The soul loves everything.
Hello there, My alias is Phoung. Its a pleasure to meet you. I’ll take your challange and try to think as you do. I have an open mind and i’ll put myself within your elements, because you havemuch to say, and i want to understand. At the end ofmy comment, i will leave my email, and i encourage youto talk to me.
First off, “normally” the first years of your life will be blissful because you have yet to understand “life”. And the state of being a child, is almost symbolic for purity and happyness. Many people try to return to their child hoods or try to recreate it, to escape from reality.
As for your friends turning on you, that is just a life lesson learned. Expericance is the best way to understand [life]. But as for this “cannabis” thing, this is where your depression may have began to show. Depression is usually deepened by alcohol, smoking, or any other type of drug.
As for the being at home and not being social is pretty much more of an evironmental thing. You may have not socialized because of what happened or simply due to the fact that your home is your comfort zone.
As for your lack of need for girlfriend etc. is something that can be answered with a psychological answer. My answer is something you probably weren’t looking for. But i think, that it could have been based on influence; your influence of whatyour friends have done or lack of socialization. I used to be thatway. Those who socialize tend to look for a crowd they can relate to, in other words, look for someone who is looking or a partner, or just looking for a friend, or any other social qualities one may look for in another. But this is just a possibility of environmental influence. Does that make sense?
(i apologize, i may not be the best reader. my sincere apologies) but you make it sound as if others, or the world in general, is trying to label you, when truly what is happening, there really isn’t a label because we are all the same. and if we are all the same, we can’t be an “individual” (the way you put it)
And i totally agree that we are one. But not many people will see it that way, because they have been blinded by influence. Humans will be their own demise. But i really like how you said that we are our own reflections of ourself, like if i saw how a person was so greedy over money i could see that i am also greedy with whatever item i prize. I never really saw it that way, and thatis a reallyneat wayto think.
So really, it would be impossible to blame anyone for the tragedies that have happened. If we blamed another, we would only blame ourselves beacuse we have made the same mistakes, so in the end, everyone is guilty, because, unverisally and spiritually we are connected and are one.
by prisoner of ‘mind’ what exactly do you mean? and you said you wanted to return the the infinate source ofknowlege and love: do you mean, doyou wish youcould return to the innocence of a child? return back to when you were little and nothing mattered? Because as children, we are the perfect infinities that new nothing but love and compassion for that which came into contact with us.
Ex: return back to when we were little and we played with another kid who was from another race. We didn’t see the other child for his race or what he looked like. we saw him for his soul and how much we were alike. (That is how i interpreted that)
Ex: so by not being a prisoner of the “mind”, you dont want anyone to see you foryour race or age. you want to be seen for the same qualities that other have. You want to be seen as the same soul in others? (was i close?)
It does make perfect sense for me, only because of how i interpreted it. So im not quite sure if i understood if from your eyes. So, concislely, you feel sucidal because you are falling prisoner to the mind [where you are put in the spot of being and individual instead of the infinity that exists in everything] and this is something that is just doesn’t sit right with you.
if i was totally wrong, i apologize. you can even tell me here
silly.snowball@yahoo.com
Hello.
I just wanted to take a second a thank you for posting. I thought maybe I was alone with the way I think about the role we play as a single person in the crowd. Its nice to know someone at least understands some what how I think. I pretty much did the same thing when I hit high school. Something just changed and I slowly pushed all my friends away. I spent hours in front of the computer and before long all my relationships were gone. My post may be slightly hard to understand due to lack of sleep -_- Anyway, I guess what the point of all this was to let you know if you ever just feel like talking you can Email me at Angel_1148259@hotmail.com.
Hope to hear from you soon,
Whitney
You believe that others do not understand this “perfect sense†you speak of, however I challenge you to look around you. I can tell you are an intelligent human being with advanced views on consciousness and science, therefore I find it hard to believe that you do not see the universal truth that you talk of. You say people believe that life is about going out getting drunk and having meaningless sex. Well this is true in some ways, people do go out get drunk and have meaningless sex, and I am one of those people. But you have to question the motives of the people doing this. Do you believe that they think that’s all there is in life? The only reason they are doing these things is to escape from the “perfect sense†that you yourself talk about. Mankind has from his infanthood tried to categorize the higher power he senses inside him. The biggest outcome of this is organized religion. Pick up any history book and you will find that as long as there have been humans there has been god. Granted he hasn’t always been the old man on a cloud that billions believe in today, he has come in the form of outside powers, tribal leaders, mythical beasts, animals and even inanimate objects. But all this is irrelevant because what I am trying to show you is that people have always known there is a “perfect truthâ€, but their ignorant little minds cannot cope with this, so they demean something so pure and simple, by covering it with holy texts and paintings. You may say that not everyone is religious, and this is true. I am what some people may class as “Atheistâ€, or a “Non Believerâ€. But let me tell you that these terms insult me with their ignorance and self importance. Just because I do not accept the view that has been forced upon me since childhood, does not mean I am some sort of lesser being, who is incapable of belief or thought. It is my own thought that has lead me to cast away the ridged views of organized religion, strip away what we have covered up. Religion to me is like a ugly scaffold over a beautiful church, so called “atheists†pull down the scaffold, however after millennia of seeing only scaffolding, the true beauty of the church is frightening for all, and unbearable for some, so they either shuffle back to safety in religion, or they run away, fully aware of the truth, but so frightened of it they manage to fool themselves into a sense of independence and freedom, two words that can be translated as “drinking†and “meaningless sexâ€. In conclusion if you look hard enough you will see that people are not blind to the truth, it’s just that some choose to close their eyes. Do not threat that no one understands you, because I and many, many others understand you fully, if you wish to feel the connection, do what any of the greatest minds have done, Buddha, Jesus and Mohamed, throw away everything, and be with yourself and the world, only then will you find your inner peace.
i love the way you think.
brokenshadow post = very deep