About a month ago I lost my scholarship. With it I lost my future career as well and the respect of my family. All my friends have moved off and barely talk to me anymore. Each day i can barely drag myself out of bed and try not to think of all the possible ways to off myself. I know it would hurt my family and everyone who cares about me. But I just can’t take the looks of disdain anymore. Or knowing thatÂ I’veÂ failed them. I just don’t see anymore hope for me. Not when I’m going to be kicked out in less than a week. I just want a quick and painless and easy way to off myself, to end everything.