Depressed for no great reasons…

Ive been depressed for a while, Im 14 years old and done with all the ‘all teenagers go through this phase’ bullshit. Ive gone psychologist to psychologist, from hospital to hospital, and happy pills. Im not depressed for any good reasons. I have a house. I have food. I have clothes. Im for the most part healthy. But i cry over the stupidest things, like how i look.

I was thinking about the fight with my ex-friends that caused me to drop out of school (im considering homeschool or just running away, even ‘therapeutic boarding school’ if we can afford it). I start crying everytime i see their posts on my other friends walls on facebook.

I cry when i think of my best friend who i had a crush on, and how he wanted sex from me, was my good friends boyfriend, and just started ignoring me and hating me.

I cry when i look in the mirror. Im just a crybaby.

I never used to be so fragile before the fight. The fight was horrible, they turned my confidential personal stuff into these sick twisted lies and told everyone, spread rumors, and turned every person that ever liked me as a person against me, except guys. Guys are pretty chill with drama. Except for Ryan…

My parents hate me, same with my twin sister.

I just want someone to support me.