Ive been depressed for a while, Im 14 years old and done with all the ‘all teenagers go through this phase’ bullshit. Ive gone psychologist to psychologist, from hospital to hospital, and happy pills. Im not depressed for any good reasons. I have a house. I have food. I have clothes. Im for the most part healthy. But i cry over the stupidest things, like how i look.
I was thinking about the fight with my ex-friends that caused me to drop out of school (im considering homeschool or just running away, even ‘therapeutic boarding school’ if we can afford it). I start crying everytime i see their posts on my other friends walls on facebook.
I cry when i think of my best friend who i had a crush on, and how he wanted sex from me, was my good friends boyfriend, and just started ignoring me and hating me.
I cry when i look in the mirror. Im just a crybaby.
I never used to be so fragile before the fight. The fight was horrible, they turned my confidential personal stuff into these sick twisted lies and told everyone, spread rumors, and turned every person that ever liked me as a person against me, except guys. Guys are pretty chill with drama. Except for Ryan…
My parents hate me, same with my twin sister.
I just want someone to support me.
5 comments
well if they are going to fight with u then you dont need them in your life and its ok to cry i hate it but still do it time from time sometimes thats just out you get things out if u ever need to talk i am hear
it gets better. it takes time…but it gets better.
im glad you’re here. and im here if you’d like to talk.
you are still very young. i went through a lot of stuff like that when I was your age, the rumors, the fake friends, all of it and i have lost a lot of people in my life but the people that are still here and have been here for me will stay friends with me forever. i am 21 years old and ive had times where i thought i had absolutely noone but it will get better like “hoping4better” said.. i can be the support you need, if you want to talk email me cjlortz@yahoo.com hang in there sweetheart
thank you both. i just need to know people are here, you know?
please feel free to email me anytime. hoping4better11@gmail.com
i posted a note a few days ago…ive linked it here. im here for you…even if its just virtually.
http://suicideproject.org/2010/11/youre-not-alone-2/