Life….It is what it is. You look, you search, you contemplate…but you never find. Perhaps I heard too may fairy tales growing up, perhaps I listened to too many songs, but is it really so much to ask? Really? Love me for me? Be the man I need and in me you will never find a more faithful, caring, loving partner. It’s one thing or another. I had a man that lied to me all the time, one I was not at all in love with, but my lifestyle was grand. There wasn’t anything I wanted that I couldn’t have. But the lies, oh damn, I couldn’t deal with the lies. Then I move on to a man that made love to me like no other man could, had money even better than my ex, but wouldn’t share. Then I move on to a man I have known before. One who was all I ever wanted in a man back then. 15 years later, though, I don’t know him. He makes great money, but not only doesn’t he act like we are together, but he acts like I don’t deserve him. I go to school full time, I work, I take care of house and home and I am willing to give him the children he claims he wants.Â I don’t know anymore.Â Some days he acts like he couldn’t live without me, but mostly he acts like I don’t exist. I can’t live like this, but I cannot live any other way. What do I do? I swear, if it were not for my child, I would have already ended it.