I hate my parents. No, Im dissapointed in their lack of support. They blame me for everything, my own twin sister blames me for everything. My dad calls me ugly, fat, and hits me. My mom calls me fat too, but goes to the extent of not feeding me. She doesnt just hit me like my dad, she beats me when she sees me cutting.
My sister is a selfish fat pig. If she doesnt get enough attention from ‘Daddy’, she cuts herself, throws a tantrum, or blames me, and accuses me. Did i mention she’s 14?
I just want to catch a Greyhound, or take a samtrans to a place i dont know. Half Moon Bay is killing me.
I have no friends, no one, just me myself and I.
Which hardly counts for anything, since im driving myself insane.
Everything my parents and sister call me just makes my insecurities eat at me.
Once upon a time, long before puberty, i was skinny as a twig and cute.
No one supports me, helps me, loves me, or if they love me they dont show it at all.
I hate this.
I want to run away, or dig a hole and sit, wait it out.
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fuck them. honestly, fuck them all. what do they matter to you? if they font care why should you? you’ll get out soon, you will and then you never need to see them again. just make it through the next two years and it’ll be okay. it sounds hard i know, but one day at a time. and if cutting helps then fine, but stay and show them your stronger, because you are. x
my dad use to call me fat and ugly use to tell me no girl would want me lookin the way i do i know thats true and that i was the cause of my parents problems now though and the beatings stoped though and so did the insaults i still insault myself all the time and even push for it with strangers. im not well its not a fun path to follow. the only time i was skinnier was when i was homeless at 20 i walked non stop all day everyday talkin to myself to pass the time.sorry to see you are so down but you know there are alot of people interested in big girls and guys. ive had two big girlfriend it never bothered me at all.
i do care, it sounds stupid, but when i was little they loved me, and i cant shake the feeling that if i try hard theyll love me again…
as for being fat, its so hard…especially at the high school i go to everones skinny, i mean im not fat or average, caught at 130 pounds. its hard.
thanks for the input, i just come here for advice to get out of my hell-hole.
i might be able to help you through this. seems pretty intense. im social work student, do u want to talk?
yes, i would like that a lot.
e-mail me/check your other post.
ellaavriel@yahoo.com
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