Tag:

run away

Anyone disappeared to start a new life?

by frog 7/7/2021

written by frog

Long story short. I’ve been on the edge for years now. A while back I realized that instead of killing myself, I could just dissapear n look at it as a ”bonus level”. I’m sure my family would be more comfortable knowing im alive somwhere. I’ve read about some people who disappeared to start a new life n are way better off. So why not try?

The only thing thats holding me back is the fact that I’m a parent. Obviously I want the best for my kid but I’m very misserable and mentally unstable so I’m not sure which is better; two parents but one […]

7/7/2021 12 comments

Its over

by darkwillow 5/25/2016

written by darkwillow

I need a suicide date. date as in, day, not some weird romantic fetish.. But i guess I’ll decide on that later.

I’ve been pushed over the edge now. I don’t have motivation to run away. I don’t have motivation to look for new people or friends. I’ve tried talking and meeting to countless online friends. Some i have pushed away..

I’m done. I can’t do this.

I’ll let you know when i decide on a date.

Thank you Chordful, Kat, Sportsballs, Fakingit.. I wouldn’t have made it this far without you.

I wont ever leave without a proper goodbye.

I’d write more, but tears are like burning my eyes.. Is that […]

5/25/2016 9 comments

Run away run away

by fitzgerald 4/22/2016

written by fitzgerald

I’ve been at the gym for three hours. Just trying to keep moving, keep distracted.

Every time I slow down it catches up. Sinking feeling, a punch in the gut. Not for any particular reason, of course. That’s the worst part.

I know drowning is a cliche but that’s what it is. Just treading water. If you stop even for a second, you go under.

4/22/2016 1 comment

How do you expand your support group?

by DoubleZero 4/2/2016

written by DoubleZero

I mean, when your family consist barely in your mother and your little sister, you don’t have friends, and you can’t pay a psychiatrist? To whom am I supposed to talk to when I /need/ to hurt myself or run away?

4/2/2016 20 comments

I’m Sorry :)

by ChonceHoran 12/20/2015

written by ChonceHoran

Dear Dad,

I’m sorry.
I’m sorry I’m not what you want me to be. I’m sorry I have an attitude. I’m sorry that I keep dissapointing you.
I’m sorry that you hate me. I’m sorry I’m not perfect. I just can’t do this anymore– knowing that all I could ever do
is dissapoint you. All I can do is make you hate me even more than the minute before. I don’t know what to do anymore.
All that makes sense is ending the pain, ending your struggle and stress. Ending the problems that I’ve caused. I’m not a good person. I don’t even like myself, I understand […]

12/20/2015 1 comment

Why??

by abisslover25 12/14/2015

written by abisslover25

Seriously the days are getting so hard :(. I don’t want to do this anymore. I am so sick of pretending to be happy and doing what I am supposed to. I know my life isn’t going to change. Tonight it took almost everything I had to not just run away and hide and start over alone. Seriously I have like no friends. No one to talk to and I am so sick of being alone and having no one when I need them. The only voices I hear are on tv. :(. I don’t know how long I can live in this sucluded life.

12/14/2015 6 comments

Protected: Need advice.

by whiskered-fish 11/27/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/27/2015 67 comments

Slipped

by Take a Deep Breath 9/27/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

I don’t think this is just me, but I’m not sure. Yesterday, I was having quite an excellent day. I am a pretty darn busy person, so being able to have some down time in my room was cool. I didn’t really have anything to do- and all the sudden, all I wanted to do was cut. I tried to run away from the feeling so I went to the gym to run it off. I came home, and was yet again consumed by the desire to cut. I wasn’t sad, depressed, or angry- it was just a reoccurrence of an old habit. Unfortunately, I […]

9/27/2015 2 comments

Protected: I need to run away…

by Tristeza 9/11/2015

written by Tristeza

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

9/11/2015 17 comments

What is wrong with me?

by Heiwana 9/2/2015

written by Heiwana

In the last couple days I am always crying, and most of the time for no reason and I can’t stop. I cry in bed, I laid down in floor and cry, I cry in front of the pc, at the window, while walking like a zombie in bedroom. And then I stop crying and I am without feelings, just there, quiet and empty. And sometimes when I cry I go from “I am going to kill myself right now” to “What? I want to live” to “I hate this universe!!” in a matter of seconds and several times in a row. Even the smallest […]

9/2/2015 1 comment

I can’t do this anymore, I don’t want to..

by Yours, Forever and Always 8/1/2015

written by Yours, Forever and Always

I’ve attempted suicide over ten times.

I’ve never been raped or lost someone close to me to death. I’ve never been homeless or starving. I’ve never run away or snuck out.

Instead, I’ve smoked and drank. I cut and I burn. I think about my death often.

I remember when my parents found out how suicidal I was. My mom laughed and then continued smoking and my step father joked about keeping me away from his tools. They never put me in a hospital, and only took me to therapy once.

They put me on a bunch of meds, […]

8/1/2015 11 comments

Here comes goodbye.

by cant.fixme 7/15/2015

written by cant.fixme

I’m the kind of person that get really get attach to someone who cares for me. Like if we start talking for a while and becomes a routine it’ll become like a part of me. So eventually, when you decide out of the blue that your going to leave and not say a word it’s going to hurt, of course not knowing what i did or didn’t do that made you run away from me of fucking course that it’s going to hurt. Because the other night it was all laughing smiles and love and now it’s ( i don’t even think i can name […]

7/15/2015 4 comments

Just about there…

by smb 7/3/2015

written by smb

I use to live in San Diego, California when i was growing up. It was amazing and I wasn’t the most popular kid but I did have a small amount of good friends that I was happy with. Then in the middle of 5th grade my family decided to move to Indiana and well that was probably the worst decision of their lives. I made friends in 5th grade when i started, and got a crush on this kid named Justin. Over time all the friends i though i had starting to turn on me, especially in 6th grade. I got bullied so […]

7/3/2015 4 comments

So…

by Sammi6xoxo 5/15/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

I want to run away
Say you’ll come
I want to be okay
Let’s just run
We will never look back
We can leave our pain behind
Let the past stay in the past
I’ll be yours; you’ll be mine

I’m just going to leave. But I can’t help wanting someone to come with me.

5/15/2015 7 comments

Vanish.

by HannahGort99 5/14/2015

written by HannahGort99

I really want to give up.

I have to put up with so much, no one loves me, no one cares for me… So who would grieve when I die or disappear?

But that won’t happen. Why? Because I’m scared to. I’ve seen things that can prove that people will make shit up and jump to conclusions. For instance: I disappear, run away without any evidence to where I was going… Then people at my school would say things like this: “She got pregnant and had to find her baby daddy.” or “She decided to drop out and be a slut for her living to make enough […]

5/14/2015 8 comments

Am I the only one?

by queer 4/3/2015

written by queer

I find it so difficult to exist, to be.

Am I the only one that feels existence is horrible? That to exist is too much. That the possibility of being trapped in eternity existing is so overwhelming that I can’t breath.

I can’t run away from existence, I am even petrified that when I kill myself I will still be trapped in existence. One is so powerless and out of control. Just trapped for all eternity if eternity exists. Unable to get away from being. Unable to not be. I wish it could all stop. I can stop. Just an end. Nothing more, nothing less. Just stop

4/3/2015 3 comments

disappear

by disappearingme97 10/23/2014

written by disappearingme97

Hello there. I’m me. I’m confused and I still don’t like myself.

Am I the only who feels so compelled to run away all the time? I feel like I want to run away from my life. From everything I have. From all of my life. From my experiences. From reality.

I want to run away to restart. You’re right. There are no restarts in life. But. Everything we do in life is based on our definitions, no?

Ah. I’m sorry. One day I will. I might or might not bring you. But this sounds like a pretty good future in my imagination.

Right. Running away. I should run […]

10/23/2014 3 comments

erm…

by Namelessqueer 9/2/2014

written by Namelessqueer

I feel better than I have in weeks. Still nervous and worried but I have a smile on my face. I am finding it difficult to focus. I’m finding it difficult to go on in certain ways. I need to figure certain things out. Maybe this isn’t what I’m meant to do in life. maybe I should run away. I’ve always wanted to run away, like Holden Caulfield. I think I should give this life a try and then see if I still feel the same in a few months.

I’ve gained some weight and I’m still getting use to my body. It feels like it […]

9/2/2014 1 comment

Would love to just disappear

by engfi 8/2/2014

written by engfi

Would love to just run away from everything, start new then return better and feeling normal

8/2/2014 3 comments

Mommy?

by HippieGurl 7/31/2014

written by HippieGurl

I don’t want to cut anymore I don’t want to smoke But what reason do I need to stop for? You wanted me to change and I did I became a whole new person just so you would be proud of me and where did that get me? It got me nowhere your still not proud, I don’t want to be a mini Jasmine or Laura Jr. I want to be Mya and Mya wants to dance, sing, run away with her guitar and write music. I was happy in Oregon I had a bunch of friends and almost had a boyfriend But you dated […]

7/31/2014 1 comment

Newer Posts

Older Posts