Love me, Hate me,
Make me, Break me.
Why love me,
When your heart’s so closed?
When you could just toss my tournemted mind
Into those blood-dimmed waters?
Taint my soul
and paint my heart black.
drive your knife into my back
And leave it there
Until I learn to live with the hate.
Then leave me, my deariere
and leave me to fill that hole
with hate of my own.
Is this how you love?
I doubt it
But I’ll take it for now,
but seems my times up
’cause You finally said it, you love her.
Yes, admit it, fallen for another.
Spreading your love elsewhere
As I stand here alone
Whispering what I should have screamed,
“I love you.”
If I love was a person I’ll kill it with Cupid’s favorite arrow.
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Wow that is a really awesome poem. Love is awful and amazing. “first it givith then it taketh away” When you devote your whole life to some one then get passed off and treated like crap it leaves you feeling like the worst person on the planet but your not and you can learn to love yourself and find someone else to love that will treat you right, keep your head up and you can do anything
I encourage every writer to keep writing no matter how they feel about their work or how others feel about it. Never stop writing.
Oh my god! You’re alive. I’ve been so worried about you!
Where’d you disappear off to for so long?
@Paul @Miguel
Thank you guys. And yeah, being rejected causes a lot more complications.
@Hannah
Haha. Yeah I am. Not sur yet whether that’s good though. Because so far not many great things have happened. I’ve been worried about you too.
Well what’s been going on since we last talked? You were really low that night and I honestly thought you’d killed yourself. By the way, tp didn’t jump and we are now going out! And I had to start councilling and am now on antidepressants. So not good.
Hey girl
Hannah.
I tried and obviously failed. Didn’t get caught. I wish it worked though. I’m gla you guys are together now. That’s awesome. Lol. Why isn’t it good you got help. Does it make things better at all?
@sucks
Hello. 🙂
Sounds mean, but I’m glad you failed. You’re such a nice girl. Nope, it’s made things worse, to be honest. Wish I hadn’t bothered. I told my therapist about my shit and she laughed at me. So it was a complete waste of time really.
Thanks. But I still disagree. Oh yeah. I’m now one year older. Hah
That’s girls a real peice of work. What’s her problem? Laughing is just cruel. But I have a feeling shed do the same to me. If the mess make things worse then get of them and leave the therapist or get a new one.
Well, happy birthday honey!
I don’t want to go anymore, but my mum is forcing me to go. I don’t really have a choice if I’m taking the antidepressants anyway cos they have to moniter it.
How do they do that?! I would toss them. One at a tome
Hey I am glad u are still hear to
and a lil about me I had relapsed on cutting
and big drama happened but I don’t wanna talk about that
I bloody felt like it!
Ya Hannah I know what u mean
Hah. I had so man relapses. I’m pretty much limping a little now cuz of my hips. A lot of drama here too. And obviously, broken heart.
Glad your both alive and here.
Ya I know what u mean
sorry about that try ur hardest not to do it ka
and want me to kick his ass
cuz a boy has been harashing me
Sorry. But I dnt thnk I’ll stop.
And no I don’t. I can’t hate him.
What has he been doing?
sorry thats what i dont wanna talk about. its ended really badly
lets just say i have been called whore slut and a few other things cuz of him.
and i know u dont thinks u would but u can
i am gonna do it tonight
🙁 that guys a bastard
But a quick overview is that I think I loved him. He love my best friend. I told him after he told he and he ignored it. Now I have to deal with a bunch of crap and another guy who talks to me a lot. Idk where my emotions are anymore. It’s just hard to explain.
I really can’t hate him. He’s so sweet and nice and sensitive. Ugh. I’m gonna stop talking about him now.
Will you tell me later if you can? I wanna try to help
maybe i might but its over so i dont see how u could or well it gonna end soon.
What are you going to do tonight, sucks?
Please don’t be suggesting what I think you are
um hannah i had told u i was gonna cut.
and sage i was talking about with the boy shit. that will be over soon
but to both i do plain on trying to end it after my sisters wedding. i could make her hurt on her specail day with both her parents dead i could let her louse a sister on that day to ones i did she will only have one close sister left
I was just checking that was all. I can live with cutting but I would be so sad if yoe went any further.
Don’t want to sound like a *****, but I think she’ll be sad whenever you do it! You’re a lovely girl and I think people would really miss you! If they didn’t, then they’re fucked up. I would miss you! Who would I talk to?
Sucks
Please don’t. I would hate for you to be gone. 🙁 I can’t loose a friend like you. When is the wedding? It’s nice f you to think if her happiness 🙂
haha thanks
you would have tp and sage. its time for me to do something for myself and be happy with it. and with all the fighting i dont think i would be missed. and a lot of ppl call me the devil so being missed or a lovely person might be behind me after all i am not who everyone thinks i am i am in pain and i sure dont act like a christan.
so to the christans i am fake as hell and probaly a lot of them would say that to if they new this side of me
ya i know … thanks i put everyone b4 me all the time
its in july
Anyone else stressed out to an extream?
ya haha
i hope i am not the cause if so i will shut the hell up
I think your wonderful. But I suppose your right. It’s our own choice.
No your not. I’m almost always stressed. Lol. While I was gone I stopped eating again and wasn’t sleeping and was cutting a Lot and almost passed out in school. It was awkward trying to explain all that to people without telling the whole truth.
Yeah, I woul still have them, but I need you too!
And yes, I’m very stressed. Always am!
Hah. Yeah.
ya i know.
there are a lot of people who dont want me to go but i am just not sure
Exactly! You’re not sure.
sorry thats late haha
ya its hard to explain my shit whit out the hole truth to haha everyones been getting lies
just to cover my ass up
Have I been getting lies? I hope not!
Will you tell us the whole truth?
ya i know i want to leave this world but theres just something else there that i am trying to ignore and idk what it is
hannah i dont think so
and sage ya if u dont hate me cuz what i did was really bad in a way
Something else? Like what? I don’t understand.
I would never hate you.
Sucks, what you did really wasn’t that bad. I was talking to a friend the other day who went on webcam with a 50 year old guy. She was 13 at the time and you can imagine what they got up to! Nobody is going to hate you for it anyway!
idk
its like theres a need for me to be hear its hard to explain when i really dont understand it.
and sage thanks
There is a need for you to be here because we need you! I thought us three were gonna stick together?? Sisters and all that shit!!
ya but i think theres a part u dont know i am not that sure if u know cuz i havent said it to anyone i thinks i havent
What’s that part?
ya i know what u mean and yall are my sisters and i love u both
about will
the lil kid
Is he the guy you went out with for a bit?
no i never went out with him
or that other guy
i meet him over sp
Is he the one you liked? He talked to me once didn’t he?
I don’t think you should leave until your 100% for it
I know whT you mean. I know that feeling.
no i dont like him like that but like a brother
and i think so i made that post about him and i was crying the day after we all four started to talk
Ok, I’m with you now. Yeah I remember him. What about him?
he got some to if u know what i mean and thats the night i cut and od
Oh shit! How old is he?
13 or 14
he was like i wanna help u and asked for it and said other stuff and so i did
the convo stared off with u cant make me mad and he was like ya i can and i said how and he was like i wanna ….
u fill in the rest
but he hasnt goten anymore
What did he say?
nothing about them
just dont let ur face be in them
Yeah, I agree with him.
ya i know
where r u sage
Sorry. I’m here.
Where’d you go? Stop vanishing like that! You worry me!!
haha ya me to
where did u go
one time i rember u left and u cut plz tell me u didnt
of course i cant say that cuz i am about to
I’m fine at the moment I guess. I promise I’ll tell you guys if I cut or do something.
I hope you dont
ya i know
i feel like i have to.
very nice poem. (:
I’ve been reading your comments. and it seems this place is more than just a ‘vent’ sight. people notice when you’re gone… it’s more like a community. which to be honest, is even better.
I think I may like it here.
@bringitback ya your right
us three girls are like family and i have loved it hear for a long time
i hope it helps u
and if u ever wanna talk we can
Yeah, we don’t mind expanding our group for you!!
well hey hannah u an tp talking a lot haha
Yeah, we are!!
u shouls tell him to get on and say hey
Sucks
I know. It’s okay. I would be a hypocrite if I told you not to do
It ( as you know full and well)
Bringitback
The site wasn’t originally made for this but it’s nice to be able to have friends like sucks and Hannah and violet who’s not here right now (I’m worried). I hope you don’t have to stay for too long, ’cause this is still a site for the suicidal. Well unless your here to try to help.
I’m glad you like my poem. Thank you.
GET TP ON NOW!!! he is now my brother. Just so you guys know (welcome to my immature side :D)
I liked your poems too, btw. I never commented on them. They were very nice! You really should take up writing or something.
I do. I write a lot. Just strews creative writing over the summer. I’ve been doing poetry forever. A while a ago. I put up a lot of stuff that was actually pretty good. Compared to then. I really suck now. In my opinion. But I just suck in general lol
You don’t suck now at all! Look at how many people commented on them!
no u dont i like them
ugh this shit piss me of when i am in a bad mood and i am about to cut something happens to put a smile on my face ugh damit
Sucks, please don’t cut. Talk to me instead.
i am talking to yall but me and school today was just horablie and like i said earler i feel like i need to
Yyaaayyyyyyy keeeppp smiilliinngggg
if I continue bein immature will you keep smiling?
And I do suck guys.
Most of the comments is us talking
You do not suck!! How many times do I have to tell you??
I’d rather you didn’t cut but if you really have to, please don’t make it too bad. At least promise me that?
haha i was crying a lil wile ago wile i was wrighting a post about my mom and thing of her.
and sage idk
and your are good even if its just us talking
It’s good to think about her.
i dont cut that bad at all.
my guards down and thats when its so easy for me to do it. i know its dangerouse
ya i guess it just hurts
Well your not alOne. Hannah an I are here for you whenever you need us
Yeah, but it would be worse if you forgot about her.
Suck’s guess what if you keep cuttin we will walk. & i will find a chain saw & cut your head off. People like you here just because your cuttin bullshit
if thats true you got to walk. But if people here hurtin like you fine no more cuttin ok.
ya and i have to say thanks
Word Donnie
i was talking to hannah and sage but ok haha
Good go back talk hijack this
Sucks
Haha okay. 🙂 I’m glad I have you and Hannah. Has violet been on recently? I’m worried.
no she hasent her and will got in to it a wile ago and she let it get to her
Oh god. She won’t answer my emails….
ya mine either
but i am sure shes ok
just wait a few days ok
ok guys
Will just told me to shut up
so i am gonna go do that
Yeah, we waited weeks for you and you’re fine, right?
And why did he tell you to shut up?
idk i guess he hasnt understude my funny talk
i was trying to get out of this mood
but he just shoved me back in
I suppose you guys ar right but you I’d say you though I was dead.
Sucks
Why would he do that?!?! Don’t shut up. Talk.
haha i just post what i have been working on
o i guess cuz he didnt get that i was trying to be funny
Well we knew you were! Don’t listen to him, listen to us! We love you!!
ya thanks
he loves me as a friend but idk
o hannah i posed what i was feeling the past few days if u wanna reed it
I just read it and I am crying my eyes out! That is so sad. I honestly can’t imagine having to go through that. You are such a strong person to actually come out the other side. It would have killed me. I really am so sorry, you have no idea.
ya
thats another reason why i wanna die so i can go see her
and i am stiill crying
I’m crying too, honey. I feel bad.
plz dont i will delete it am so sorry plz dont
god i always hurt ppl
No, sucks. Don’t be like that. Please don’t delete it!
but your hurting because of me
and i dont want you to hurt
everythime i share my true feelings on something someone gets hurt
Don’t worry about me. I really liked reading it. I like knowing how you’re feeling cos then I can try and help you.
theres no help for that
Yeah, I know honey but I can try.
dont i will make you hate me like Will does.
I don’t hate you. How could I hate you? You helped me through so much!
Are you OK right now?
Hey sorry I keep going randomly. Bu I think I should take my leave now. My moods declining fast
Why, what’s up?
Sucks. Please be okay. You deserve to be a lot happier no matter what Will thinks
sage plz stay
dont go
hannah sure i am ok
Hannah. Just a bunch of shitty stuff.
Are you sure you’re OK? You can tell me if you’re not
sage stay lets get threw this together
stay
Sucks. Would your really rather I’d stay? I don’t see mug point. I can’t offer much help
Now
yes and you dont have to help me i dont want it
i will deal with it on my own
hannah ya i will be ok
Okay then I’ll try tostay
🙂 that made me happy and something else
Something else?
ya the guy i like just told me to do it (cut)
it made me happy
Why would that make you happy? He wants you to cut?
well umm no but it makes me happy that he just said that. thats all
Hmm okay I guess. Well just what I needed. A text from my failed love life
is it good or bad
Both. (its nt from the guy who rejected me)
o ok gotchy
Ugh. Damn. I really wanna cut right now
ya me to
but try not to
hey can u email me
Guys please don’t cut!
aseibel 92 @ gmail.com
with out spaces
Idk. Im trying to think whether or not it would give me a panic attack or something. Hmm okay. I’ll try.
Hannah
Sorry but it’s driving me crazy not to right now
Don’t go over the top guys. Please.
I’ll try but I rely can’t promise anything for sure.
hey night yall i guess you both have alredy gotten off already now
No, I was talking to tp
I just got back. Hi.
Hey
How’s TP? I miss him
Tp is good. We’ve been talking for about 6 hours now.
Haha. You guys are together now right?
Hey well
Will and I just finshed our fight so ya
and Hannah just couriose don’t u need sleep
Yeah we are.
And I’m really not tired. The shit we just talked about!
Haha ya
Okay this is gonna rake one sec. I need to finish cleaning somthing up. Sorry
Hello?
Hi
Hey
What are you doing now? Did you cut?
Yeah. Sorry.
I was wondering where you guys went
You cut? I was talking to tp. We were helping each other out!
Sadly no not yet
No, that’s a good thing! You might not think so now, but it really is.
Yeah I did cut.
Oh okay. If you can. Tell him i say hi.
Sage I sorry
I know u tryied hard
He says hi back
Sucks
Don’t feels sorry for me. It’s a waste of emotions.
Hannah
Why won’t he come on? I wish I could talk to him
He’s going to bed in a minute. I’ll get him to come on tomorrow though.
No it not
I hate to admit it but I have a kind heart
Hannah
Oh okay. Well good night tk hin
Sucks
I’m glad you realize you do. And use it is. A bigass fat waste.
It’s not a wasisti care about u and that’s the truth
I’m going to bed now guys, it’s like half 4 here and I’ve got to be up at 7! Night. xx
Night Hannah
Wow this is a wonderfully long conversation. This right here makes me feel better, that strangers can become so close due to painful ties. I hope that you can find the strength to stay alive. You all deserve life,
@eternallyconfused – Ha! You think this is long? We had a conversation before that had like 600 comments! We all stayed up alll night chatting!
And we have become so close because of this site. I actually met my boyfriend on here too, so I owe a lot to this site. It has a lot of bad memories for me, but also a lot of good ones!