Your last hug still lingers in my heart
Your voice is ever ringing in my head
Your smile never surrendering to the dark
my soul has now learned to dread…
Fear of the dreams I have dreamt,
impede of my peace in resting.
For the illusions and mirages they net,
are cruel, deceiving, unrelenting.
I still see you smiling at me with all the love in the world
I still see you happily glidding towards me in the air.
But that is not reality, now your glance is a stare
a face without sentiment, neither joy nor despair.
And that stiff countenance occupying your fair face
was my own doing; t’was a mistake that never healed.
A lesion without cure, ever bleeding and giving chase
to your love for me, giving you a sword and a shield.
to kill my love
to remember my penance
to never forget the insult
to allow you your vengeance
And stuborn to the end, fighting with reason
my heart seeks yours, season after season.
But it’s all in vain
I love you
that is all
I was too proud
and now I fall….
(I know you’re never going to read this, but I really wish you all the happiness in the world; my life is so empty without you….. and you were right and I was wrong……. it’s just a little too late now…..)