Fucking broken.

I cant take any fucking thing anymore. Everything in my life gets worse and worse. It all started when I dropped out of school when I was 15 (I’m 17 now) At the time I thought it was a good decision but now that I think about it, it wasn’t. 😐 I was getting bullied so bad to the point where I was too depressed to even go to school. I thought that dropping out would stop my depression, but it only made it worse. Now I feel like a fucking low life. I stay at home all day and barely ever leave the house let alone my room. I cant even get my GED. 😐 When I was 16 I met this girl over twitter. We started to talk a lot and ended up becoming really close. The more we talked, the more I liked her. I ended up falling in love with her, and when I found out she had the same feelings for me I was so happy. She was the only reason I was ever happy anymore, she took away my depression, she made me feel like I actually had a reason to live. After months of dating we started to argue a lot, and she left me. I was back to the way I was. We were on and off for about 6 months until she was finally done with me. For awhile I had thought I was over her and I convinced myself I didn’t love her anymore. Then she decided to come back into my life and be friends with me. Of course I accepted it. I just wanted to be close of her. I never pressured her into anything, never told her I loved her, never even hinted I wanted to be back with her again. She just decided to leave me because she needed to get ahead in life and all I was doing was holding her back. This time I’m more hurt than the first because I know she’ll never come back. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. It’s getting to the point where the only option for me is to kill myself. I don’t know how I’ll do it or when, but all I know is that my time is coming soon. 😐