I hate my ass hole of a brother. He kicks the kids around, tells everyone to shut the hell up, acts like he’s the fucking king… My mom seems to believe that everytime I’m upset or something it just /has/ to do with her. Yeah, I don’t wanna move. But did she ever think that the fact my brother was threatening me was possibly upsetting? And that she didn’t do anything was awfully bitchy of her? I hate it here. I hate the kids at school, the people at home… I’m just too much of a coward to die now… I don’t know what the fuck to do anymore. Everytime it gets better it gets worse, knocking me right back down to where I started. I remember one time when I was sad in first grade, the teacher told me: “It’s okay. It always gets better.” I believed her for years… Fifth grade came, and suddenly I realized… Nothing would ever get better. Freshman in highschool and still, nothing is better. I fucking wish I could just run away forever…
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in real life ther is no escape its called a life eternilized as a victim
i kno how u feel at some points i wish that i could just get i a car and drive forever
Beat your brother up and show who’s boss. Kick his ass so he’ll learn his place.
Seriously though.. it’s good thing you don’t want to die. For your brother and mom, talk to your mom or dad about it. Maybe they can stop your brother’s rampage. If they can’t, just don’t let him push you around. As for school.. there will always be people who act like asses to you. You just ignore them or stand up to them. Don’t let any bully you around. Ever. If you’re still just a freshman.. then there’s still time. I suggest joining a sports team or a club. I was in clubs and a team before, I found it to be fun for awhile.
If there’s anything else bothering you, just let me know… I’ll see if I can helpl you..
My brother is a lot bigger than me. I’m really short, I have no muscle…
And like my mom gives a shit…
And I don’t have a daddy…
As for school, I can’t do any sports. I am afraid of water, and my mom smokes a lot so I run out of breath REALLY fast. And when I was little I fell off of a bunk bed and broke my nose, now I can only breath through it a little…
It’s not that hard to take out someone who is bigger than you… how about… can you ask to take up martial arts? I used to take that for awhile.. it was fun and you can learn how to kick butt.
For school.. you don’t have to join anything with water… there are sports you can take just for fun and stuff. You can just play sports like badminton or tennis and instead of running, just take it easy. You don’t have to try to make it to jv or varsity. Volleyball is good too. There are lots of sports.
If not.. you can just join a club. There should be clubs around school you can join. Joining clubs and activities like that will keep you away from your house for awhile and it’s not dangerous like going partying where you can risk getting drugged and raped if you’re a girl or getting drunk and wasted and get into car accidents or something if you’re a guy.
We’re like.. a poor family.. I have 8 other siblings…
Not anything with anyone I’ll like though… And it wouldn’t really help me, im not a very active person.
I’m family isn’t exactly rich either, but you can make do with what you have. Joining clubs and sports don’t require money. Sports, you might need equipment, but you can buy used stuff. Like for me, my first tennis racquet was from my chemistry teacher. It worked great. You really still have time to make changes.. since you’re like what..? 13, 14?
Don’t join clubs for another person… join the ones that interest you. That you like. You might like them. When I was still happy, I was like in 7-8 clubs. Kept me busy and was quite fun. I don’t really feel anything is fun anymore, but you can probably find that stuff fun.
Don’t take this the wrong way, but I don’t like people. People are my problem, why should I associate myself with more of those vile creatures? The few that do care know me now, and I’d like to keep away from the hate and shit as much as possible. While I do like a game of birdie, I gate people. Theres no point in playing something with people I don’t like. Thats like going on a date with your enemy, you just don’t do it…
I don’t take it the wrong way. I can understand where you’re coming from. I mean… I’ve been lied to and betrayed and backstabbed by every single person in my life that I’ve ever trusted, so I don’t take what you say in offense.
Like I said, play for the sport, join the club for the material it covers, not for people. I had a tennis coach who I hated. He was an ass. But this is what remember: Play tennis for tennis, play it and practice because you love it, not for the coach’s sake. Ignore him.
There’s no point if I can’t be happy. You think I haven’t tried doing /something/? No matter what I do I find no enjoyment in it what so ever. There’s really no point.
Of course there’s a point. Like I said.. you’re just in freshman year.. lots of chances to change and be happy. Did you try joining a club yet? or sport or any of that?
..I said I did already..
And yeah, while it may be freshmen year my mom wants to move and shit. Forget it, just let me be, I thought this would help but its making it all worse.
Then the last thing then. Just go through with high school. Then go to college far far away from where you are and live happily, meeting different types of people. Just use that as your hope and goal.
Life would be so much easier if everyone was on only child.
@LittleMissNobody
Not true. I’m an only child and it sucks. There’s a lot of other factors that play into it, though.
@StarryEyedLoser
Yeah, he sounds like a jerk. Why’s he like that? Is he on alcohol or drugs or whatever? And how much older is he? Maybe he’ll move out soon.
I’d say, stick with the people who care about you and try to ignore the others as best you can. If your brother makes the kids upset, calm them down.
Man, is there any way to reason with him, though?
If you end up moving, maybe you’ll find some good people to be friends with. But, yeah, it’s not easy.
On the bright side, you won’t be with your brother and mom forever.
@LittleMissNobody
But then again, maybe it would have been worse if I had a brother or sister… so I don’t know.
I suppose it depends on the person. For me, they just make it so much worse, but maybe if i had of been born into a family with nicer siblings it would be different.
NeverKnown- He’s just an ass. Thats really all there is to it. I hate him…
Little Miss Nobody- I love some of my siblings… Its the older ones that make it all hell…
Deep Abyss- I hate high school. If I am still in it at 18, I’m out. I’m not staying in a place that makes me want to kill the people around me. There’s just no fucking way.