Why do I mess everything up.I f’d up everyones life.maeliin.I’m sorry about the poem thing.I was being a jerk.I have no friends.non that care anyway.tge only thing they care about it me being bi.which u hate.I’m me.I’m not to their standards.I want to be.but I’m not.
My life is f’d up.why do I f up everyone elses too.
I don’t mean to.it just happenes.I hate it.I hate me.someone kill me before I do.I can’t break mine and maeliin’s promise:/
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D: nikki, u weren’t being a jerk, i wasn’t mad. you dont mess up other people lives you’ve helped mine…
and if you die in any manor i have the right to die as well.
Don’t try to live up to anyone else’s standards, you’ll never be happy that way. Be happy with yourself and don’t think about those who don’t like you. Like a great quote said:
Those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.
Soon you’ll find people who love you for you, just give it some time. (:
@ningyou
I have on girl who loves me.she..doesn’t understand me though.
@maeliin
I won’t break my promise.and I feel like I upset you though:/
🙂 nikki you didn’t upset me. even if you did i would forgive you because you are my friend. i trust you and respect you and it is worth it to me to try to keep our friendship going even after we’re both long gone adn dead… (which WON’T b 4 a while…cuz of our promise)
I understand that. It always sucks when someone we care about doesn’t quite get it. Maybe she’ll come around soon though and begin to understand everything.
@ningyou
She won’t.she has to be either in my shoes or in mine or your positions.
@maeliin
Honestly…I’m sared to die.but I want to so bad.I vwont.not yet.we must take oyr trip first.who knows we may end up like the people in crash into me and not want to die anymore.
yea… i’ll only not want to die if i can spend every second of every day in the pressence of my loved one…that would make me happy…
i wonder if horses and ice skating still make me happy… i’ve not done/been near either in a long time…
@nikki
You do make a good point there. A lot of the time people won’t understand stuff like this until they go through it themselves.
@ningyou
Yea
@maeliin
you should try
You know what I am
A *****
a good for nothing *****
You don’t seem like a ***** at all to me, you sound pretty nice. (:
Don’t talk so down to yourself, it’ll only continue to make you feel worse.
You are not, from the conversation we had before you were definitely not a *****, you were way too nice.
I always put vmyself down.that’s how I am.I am nice.I just think I’m a ***** cuz people call me one
Don’t let them call you that. You’re not.
I don’t let them.I just ignore them.but I feel like its true.
Facebook ignore them.
I know the feeling. It’s hard to not listen to them because the more they call it, the more you’ll believe those names. I know all too well how that goes.
You’re an amazing person though and they’re wrong for calling you such names. You’re a sweet girl, don’t let them get to you.
Bit ya people should not be making up lies like that.
They got to me.years ago.and again.I don’t let tgem.I ignore them.
I probably would’ve raised he’ll on em.
Sorry meant hell
I’m strong.I could fight them.I’m just scared to.
Probably would get in trouble if you did. Shame but a few broken teeth can really shut people up.
Not criticising you just a shame society doesnt let us hit back.
Physical violence will only cause more problems, it’s best you don’t resort to hurting other people.
Yea.I hate this.all of it.except this site.I can vent without hurting others
I end up hurting others in some way.unintentionally:/
Their right don’t listen to my advise they’re usually shit.