This is me!

@Call Me CRAZY, I got a laugh out of what you said: “This is me theres nothing wrong with me except this mind i got its fucking crazy!!!” That’s exactly how I feel about myself. I have everything going for me, but my mind is so effed up, I don’t stand a chance.

Btw, you’re no monster; you’re astonishingly beautiful. If you don’t feel that way, that’s ok, but I think you should be reminded every day. I love your fingers!! Are you a musician?

Anyway, it’s amazing what you’ve been through & still had the strength to overcome. It’s hard to rebuild after you’ve been knocked down. But it seems like you have a great positive attitude & a fighter spirit.

@lost121010, another inspiring positive attitude: “i can see life always has another side you just have to find it.” And you look so gorgeous & happy in your picture. Whatever you do, don’t lose respect for yourself because that’s how the assholes win in this world. It sounds like the guy is trying to dominate you & has no empathy for you as a human being. Definitely stand your ground & don’t be afraid to go a little batshit crazy if he doesn’t pay attention 😉

@backtrackinlife, that’s unbelievable how much physical abuse you’ve endured. Someone needs to pay those guys a visit in a dark alley with a sack of doorknobs, if you know what I mean. One thing I can’t stand is when “tough guys” think they can get away with beating on women. I have a theory that certain people just want to destroy anything that’s beautiful because somehow it makes them feel powerful. And you are very, very beautiful. It makes me sick to think that guys are victimizing you.

On behalf of all the males in this world, I sincerely apologize to all of you for my sucky gender. It seems that a small yet significant portion of us still havent crawled out of caveman times.

But it’s great to hear you’re all standing your ground as best you can. You’re all very, very pretty; I hope you realize it. And I don’t mean that in a creepy drooly sort of way (I assure you the only thing I’m lusting for is death right now). Thanks so much for brightening my day.

Haha rock band… you should definitely take up the guitar or piano or even something wacky like the contrabassoon. Altho I gotta admit dancing is the best stress relief ever invented.

I’m totally lusting for death, but it’s actually a good feeling if that makes any sense. We all need a dream to keep us going, mine happens to be the idea that death will be a wonderful adventure or at least the end of pain.

In the meantime I do play the piano & electric cello 😉 It helps sometimes. It’s like dancing but you get to make a lotta noise.

Lusting for life… believe it or not, that was me for a long time. That’s prolly why I’m so devastated now. Last month everything came crashing down, and I can’t seem to recover. It gets worse every day, remembering how I great I had it once. Maybe you can relate because it sounds like you once had a very different life, and suddenly it all came apart.

I’ve been trying to fight the depression by not thinking about it. Like, staying so busy that I don’t have a spare minute to myself. But at night (and especially in the morning when I wake up) it all hits me so hard, that my life can never be the same again.

You’re so right, talking about it helps a lot. That’s so cool that your mom finally listened & made you feel better. This board is a big help, too. The other night I went to a random coffee shop & listened in on other ppls conversations… that was kinda interesting to break out of my own self-absorbed life for a while. But yeah it’s tough coming up with ways to fight the darkness. Oh btw my name is JC (“jaycee”) and I’m in PA. I’m trying to get a place in NYC next month bcos I’m hoping it might help to be surrounded by a lot of noise & distractions. Where are you, and what’s ur name?