I have a sweet wife and four kids, but I’m still sad. I don’t want my kids to be the ones who’s dad killed himself. I’ve been thinking that every fathers day would be a bad day for them. So instead of ruining a second day for them I could do it then.
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If you do that you know how much you would be missing on. You know how bad their lives will get without there father by their sides. Its like you are saying i quit and ready to leave it all. Please think more about what you are doing. Im not trying to be mean or anything, but please try. Go get help like everyone else. Try living your live with your happy family. If anything be there to support them. Like i said go find help or talk to your wife. Please rethink what your doing.
Any day you would choose to take your life will RUIN your loved ones’ lives for the rest of their lives. HOw do I know? My only child killed herself this year. You owe it to yourself AND your loved ones to get help NOW. AND, did you know that people who have lost a family member to suicide are twice as likely to die by suicide as those who did not lose a loved one to suicide?
I’ve been dealing w/ this for twenty years. I’ve fought and fought (still fighting) but my will to fight is just about all used up. My mind is still in the fight (that’s why I’m here) but my heart is just broken. I’ve seen the adult psych wards of a couple of the local hospitals and a handful of psychiatrists and psychotherapists, but I still feel this way. The only solace I find is that when this body is dead I won’t hurt like this.
you wont hurt like this but people who do care will be crush. Just talk to your wife. Just tell her how you feel. Maybe she can help. I know she doesnt want to see you dead. Do you want to leave a single mother of four kids by herself to deal with. You know how much pain she would suffer when you are dead. Just keep fighting like everyone else. Please just fight your strongest.
The appeals to reason are understood, but I just don’t want to feel this way!
Then try doing something! Do something to forget everything. Insted of fighting something try drawing or go walking in a park. SPEND TIME WITH THE FAMILY! just do something to forget you were ever sad v- v
You chose to start a family. It’s your responsibility to care for your children and teach them well. It’s your responsibility to show them love, not to receive love from your kids. I grew up living away from an abusive father and had a terrible relationship with my mother. I have no one to turn to, no one to whom I may seek council, no intelligent advisor; I had to teach myself everything, and it was incredibly hard and I struggle everyday to make every decision by myself because I have no guardian to help me.
Thanks chameleon
Guilt always eases burdens
Happy fathers day …
Happy Father’s Day Ky my best friend <3
Today is Fathers Day.
Today marks just over 5 months since my children’s father killed himself.
I understand all the reasons why he couldn’t live any more, but I see two precious, beautiful reasons why he should have stayed. Any every day I watch them grieve. And their anguish is unbearable. They deserve to have their dad here. They deserve not to ask, every single day, “why didn’t my dad love me enough to stay?”
Their dad never asked for help. I knew his pain and depression, and I offered gentle support and help all the time. His burden was to great. However, what any person considering suicide needs to know is that while you will ease your burdens, you will simply multiply them thousand-fold and leave then, as a sic parting gift,for those who loved you to deal with.
a year later. still here. still unhappy
Are you still here? I was wondering since Father’s Day is next weekend. I hope you are making it through each day somehow. Maybe through your kids’ awesome smiles? (even though they can be a bit stubborn and willful, huh?) Could I provide any insihgt? Last Father’s Day weekend, my dad did it and is now on the other side.
My mum attempted suicide and it ruined my life, I know why she wanted to. I feel the moments of pain, emptiness and nothingness she probably felt when she wanted to end her life. I’m in no position to give advice or talk you out of it but the only reason I wont end my life is because I know she’ll end hers, leaving my brother and daddy in pain.
Also, it doesn’t matter what day you’d decide to do it because everyday would be painful for them, my mum’s still alive and I’m still not at peace with it.
It’s true, RosieLeighGreen. No matter what day your life is ended, it means your loved ones will exponentially and endlessly suffer upon this Earth trying to “get it”. Please, find a way to stick around. You know, I say talk to your loved ones about your despair. It will give them a chance to react and to absorb the shock. I, for one, did not have any idea that my father felt so worthless. I was not given the insight that he would have felt weakness. So, it is a complete shock everyday. And I am an adult who did not have an active relationship due to my background. Everyone grieves differently. I am so sorry for your loss, RosieLeighGreen, and I pray and hope that this Daddy lives until it’s decided for him. That is the plan that is meant for each of us and only God determines that. I can say that my father’s death has brought me even closer to God. I have so much more to offer about that experience, which I never thought I’d have. Please reply if you’re interested in reading more of these thoughts. I do hope that your suffering is lessened, your understanding is increased and His grace is accepted.
P.S. I also feel those deep moments of depression. I never, in a million years, thought I would “understand” how a person reaches the decision to commit suicide. But I do now. I completely get it.
I was close to god until he couldn’t give my mum the strength to be the person she used to be, she’s still alive but she’s just not my mum, she’s not the person i remember, not the person i know and god won’t give her back. I try not to believe in anything spiritual these days because then it just seems like a let down whenever something bad happens but i’ll find an outlet in time.
Kyser…
@lemon & Rosie – I’m still here. I have resigned myself to living (if you can call it that) until the sweet release of death claims me, but it will not be by mine own hand. I will fight on. I’m trying to make the best of it, but it does not come easy. Thank you for your kind thoughts.
@Umbra – Liz! I’m sorry I disappeared. My emotions have been so tumultuous that I pulled back to within myself. I’m here, and I’ve missed your sweet spirit.
It’s ok, Ky. I missed you too.
This is for you: http://youtu.be/wfQadA1bw9Y