I wrote a new song last night but didn’t post it. It might be a tad confusing, I apologize if it disorients you. 😉
I wonder what it’s like not to feel this way
I wonder if it’s nice to see the sun and smile
What would it be like if I woke up to another day
And didn’t wish I wasn’t here, for a little while?
I wonder if it’s nice to worry about tomorrow’s test
To stress out with my friends and worry about my grade
What would it be like if my mind had some rest?
If I could sit and sip cold lemonade
Would I sit and smell the flowers?
Would I predict my kids’ names?
Would I sit around wondering for hours?
I don’t know, because it’s always the same
I wonder what it would like if I could stop
What if all the bad thoughts went away like gray mist?
What if I finally fell over like a spinning top?
My shadowy corners all sun-kissed
What if I could climb the tallest peak?
Or even a tiny little hill
It would still make my knees weak
But at least my heart would be filled
Would I listen to my favorite songs?
Would they be happy like they’re supposed to be?
Would I lie in the grass all day long?
I don’t know, that’s not part of being me
When I see them standing in the sun
I feel jealous as hell
All I want to do is run
Hair flying and feeling well
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I like it, thanks for posting.
Yup. That’s all I can say. Yup
Thanks guys. How are you X-Boy?
aaaaaaaaaaaah. mhmmmmm I can’t breath through my nose =|, it’s been a problem for a long time now. !!!! it makes me feel not well… so I never never feel ‘good’ . But mhmm I should be gettin an operation done soon, the chain iron ball is finally coming off!? blah.
mhm how about you? =) I was trying to sing that song with some tunes, didn’t come out too well, I will try again with some other tune =b
That sucks, I hope you feel better.
I’m good thanks. My sister forced me to watch the Hannah Montana movie with her. Which was…not fun to say the least. Miley’s entirely too happy for her own good. Other than that…okayish. I’m not feeling the greatest either, but I don’t talk about that. :/
And haha good luck singing the song, my mind works in strange ways. You’d have to be slightly insane to know what it should sound like. I end up singing it half to whatever song is stuck in my head, half to what it should really sound like, and half I write like a poem. (Yes I realize that’s one and half). So it ends up an awkward modgepodge. xD
haha Hannah Montablahblah, that would be torturous for me. it’s ok I don’t like to talk about my problems too mcuh either. mhmm maybe record a voice file of you singing this n put it on here haha =b. iono what modgepodge is =b
Yeah, I humor my sister as often as I can though. She’s a good kid. And yeah, it’s not fun to talk about my problems, I feel complainy sometimes. So I just don’t most of the time. And hmm…I’ll think about the audio file. I’m very shy about singing, even when it’s to people I don’t know or to a recording device. If I can muster up the courage I will. And that’s okay about modgepodge, it’s the glue you use to make collages. So I use it to mean a random collection of things. I do that with a lot of words, we make them up in my family: twang, hafloof, braintwin, etc. If you knew me, you’d get used to it. 😛
Yeah i guess i know what you mean, I try to make my dogs life as pleasant as i can too. Hey but mhm if you did want to talk about your problems; i’ll listen. I made a recording myself mhm i dont know when i’ll put it up though =b. Modgepodge, haha coool.
My mind is one hot mess modgepodge. haha iono if i used it right
Thanks, maybe I’ll take you up on that offer sometime. :] Put up your recording soon X-Boy! I want to hear it! And you did use it right, good job. This is a braintwin moment, because my head is a hot mess too. xD Braintwin means almost the same thing as jinx, but in a more significant way. xP
=) I didn’t use your words if that’s what you meant, it was my own in that one =b, haven’t contemplated anything with your song yet, for i havent had the time =). Braintwin, yeah whatver =b
jk!
I didn’t assume you used my words, I genuinely want to hear your stuff silly. And wow, you’re so mean. You broke my fragile little heart xD