OKay…

First of all, I’m really proud of you that you have been trying! It’s A really hard thing to do. I know it seems really hard to keep on doin it but just one day at a time.

Also, last I heard, being a college student was an occupation! But in some way, getting a job could help with getting a car and moving out (though I see no problem with living at home- cheap and free food lol)

I suggest you start by looking at some listings. Circle them and have them there and when you feel up to looking around, you’ll know straight away where to go.

You also mentioned you have tried medication. Perhaps a change in dosage or medication is required. I use to take a combination of meds but after a while, some of the (like the seroquel) stopped working. They ended up increasing te dosage. They chanced diazepam to Xanax- either way, they said my body needed different things now.

You wrote you were nearly bald? Don’t mean to pry, but is this a medical condition? If you feel it impacts your life how about looking at some treatments? It could be really helpful in terms of self esteem.

I think you should live for other people because you are an artist 🙂

Art brings out the good in so many people. Just one artwork can inspire and touch so many people.

Have you heard of Shaun tan? He’s an Australian illustrator/author/artists but it is his artworks (especially when combined with a few words) that really made a difference in my life.

However, most importantly, I think you need to live or yourself- not for others.

Hope this helped! 🙂

I think it’s really brave of you that you have been trying and pushing yourself! Please live!