Not quite 10 am my time…. it’s already been a difficult day…. sorry for my rants.
Another of my poems….. hope some one can relate.
this one is appro po for today…. titled “Killing Thoughts”
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No one around to pick me up,
livin’ a life that’s stuck in a rut.
Just sittin’ around, lonesome and blue,
lookin’ for ways to get my mind off you.
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The sound of my thoughts is all I hear,
those of suicide are the ones I fear.
I don’t like myself or anything about me,
with rope in hand I search for a tall tree.
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Then all of a sudden you contact me somehow
and I’ll start to feel better than I do right now.
But it doesn’t last, the joy is fleeting and thin,
I’ll be back where I started, in the dumps again.
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Good feelings would last and I wouldn’t be down,
if I could find someone willing to stay around.
But it won’t ever happen, I’ve got nothing to give,
I’ve finally decided I don’t want to live.
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This is goodbye, I can’t go on,
feeling like this, I won’t make it ’till dawn.
2 comments
I totally relate. So many nights I feel like “I won’t make it ’till dawn.” Nonstop thoughts of suicide filling my head. Oh yeah this one speaks for me.
I had a rough day too. Finally made it back to this site. Your poems are like an ice cold beer at the end of the day. Thanks again for posting these.
sorry man…. I’m afraid the fridge is about empty…