What I Done Wrong

I have finally lost it. I have finally gone off the edge of everything. I dont know what happen to me anymore. Im shoving food down my throat and i know thats not good. I just wanted to eat. Eat like i never eaten before. I just want to know whats wrong. I cry today and now im gaining weight by eating. Im suck! I couldnt do one simple thing and i seem to fuck it up. No wonder i have no self-confidence. I seem to fail at what i was trying to do. Ugh im such a pig. Why couldnt i controll this? This sudden urge to do this. Soon enough, once i die, i wouldnt have to worry about it anymore. And i wouldnt have to worrying about living too.