i actually just need to get away.
away from here.
away from them.
away from me?
im so nice all the time.
i put everyone one and anyone before myself.
i give up things i know, and love
to please others.
pathetic
i know.
the worst part… it goes by entirely unoticed.
people just tread on me like I’m dirt, yet notice something I’ve failed to do.
could i be wrong?
maybe I’m not nice?
id like to take myself out of their life just for a few days and see if its different.
who would cover up the mean statement about them
by self-depricating.
who would go along with whatever they wanted to do and make them laugh?
if not me?
maybe they appreciate it without even realising.
are there people who do this for me?
and i don’t realise?
i wish i could stop and just do exactly what i wanted for a day.. but
im not brave enough.
i always tell myself i will
but i never DO
and what you never do, is never done.
and what is never done…
is all but a floating regret
tossed away with all the others.