Today I realized that the person who is supposed to care about me most is the person who can hurt you the most.
Today is my sister’s birthday and everything was going swell until I get on the bus to come home. My sister tells me that my boyfriend was asking her questions about me. Come to find out my grandmother who is the person I live with tells my boyfriend that I only want to use him for his money. I come home and she acts like nothing ever happened. She didn’t even acknowledge the fact I was crying or the fact that I never said a word. When I realized she didn’t care that she hurt me far worse than anyone ever could, I thought long and hard about what I was going to do next. I thought about killing myself.
Before anyone decides to judge what I have said. It was not the fact that it had anything to do with my boyfriend. I have only been hurt like this twice before and I would rather have been anywhere than here. Even if that meant on a steel slab. Or in a pine box.
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It is really hard when someone you love hurts you. Please remember she still loves you.
I used to hurt my little brother a lot when we were kids, mostly emotionally. Playing mean games on him, treating him like he was stupid. I thought that was what big brothers did.
Until I got to be a teen and realized that wasn’t how I wanted to treat the brother that I really did love very much.
He hung himself last year…and he never realized I loved him and was sorry for being an ass when we were young.
Your sister loves you too, but she doesn’t realize. or see the harm she is doing. But she will when she grows up…so I hope you will forgive her, not take her too seriously, and ignore her when she acts like an ass. I wish my brother would have done these things too.