I cannot sleep at all, too much thinking, I can’t even cry myself to sleep, why is it I hurt people in the end always, why!? Why do I even deserve to live here, do I even deserve to be happy. I don’t believe I deserve to be happy. Its hard resisting this urge to just cut, my whole body aches at the thought of waking up. Why can’t I just stay sleeping, there would he no pain, no emotion, no crying. I don’t want to go to school tommorro, all I wanna do there is go to a corner and cry my eyes out, this is too much, just please hurry up summer, I don’t know how much more I can take, where is the gain of me as a friend, other than me hurting you :(, what is wrong with me, is it just the way I am, I don’t want to be like this, I just want to be normal, why am I so wierd.
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One thing I’m sure of is that I know you’re not the one hurting me. I’ll always think of you as my best friend even if you sometimes doubt it. I love you. We can get through this together. Just be strong the same way I’m doing for you.
Ok sorry for ever doubting our friendship Liz, i really am
It’s okay. So why did you doubt it?
Because after losin Anna I felt useless and felt you wouldn’t want to speak to me,
Never. I would never stop talking to you. You’re irreplaceable.
Brandon what the heck happened between you and Anna? Anna said she told you that ‘something’ would happen. You said it was okay but when it did happen you blamed her for it and she cried herself to sleep for 2 nights. What was that ‘something’? What’s going on? Are you two still talking?
Idk and no were not talking.if we talk again il end up hurting her again.I can’t bear the thought of that, she’s has a better friend now anyways, I just want her to be happy,
🙁 That’s too bad.
A better friend? Who?
Idk
Okay. Why can’t the two of you just make up? It’s not like we can keep running from our mistakes. We may hurt someone intentionally or not on purpose but that’s no reason why we can’t try to make things better.
Idk. It’s up to her if we can mend our friendship, I’m fully sorry, up to her.