I remember it all. The pills. The pot. The pain. I miss it. I was too incoherent to understand the pain, and now that iv stopped. It’s never hurt so bad. I use to laugh. I hated my laugh. I used to laugh with one eye closed and one open. But people made fun of me. So I changed my laugh. I used to go out. Now I don’t even leave the house. Every day gets more and more depressing. I remember when I used to do whip it’s and inhale ********. Huff. Euphoria. Crash. Do it over and over for hours. I just wanna be held. I wanna be loved. I want it all to go away.
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I’m sorry.
Oh, man. I miss oxycodone all the time. That fake happiness was sufficient–it was better than none at all. But I guess we just have find real happiness, instead…if only it were as easy as it sounds…
No need to be sorry. @ longtimegone, Dan girl the more I find out about you the more I love you haha. I used to take three oxys every day before school freshman year. Best year ever
I take one n ima zombie! Btw, I only take them when I have a kidney stone; they take just enough of the edge off to let me sleep. I’m absolutely comatose w/ when I take em; how’d u make it through the day?
I slept. In every class. It was great
Wish I could do that @ work sometimes! XD
oxy is good, i bought it only once, but was enough to make my summer eventful. i get what you mean though, being so far from sober that you feel no pain, im like that, i drink so much its stupid. but it works. “i know this works, so just take out another glass and pour”. im drunk every day, only helps that im high fuctioning, i guess as im used to it. which just isnt good, i guess atleast i know that
Exactly. I feel like I worse now than before I took all the drugs
yeah, i rely on the drink now. ill have jamesons every week, i mean a bottle, then just the odd different things through out the day, i really wish i didnt have to.