A good addiction?

Before I started taking lortab, my life was a wreck. I was full of so much hate, anger and depression. My life consisted of laying on the couch all day. In my defense, I do have back and hip problems, but the area that I live in has a problem with prescription drug abuse so those that need it don’t get it. I take three 10’s a day, at least 6 hours apart and some days I take less. I take them by mouth. After I started taking them, my pain was under control and I was able to do the things I always wanted to do. I started college, took care of the house, worked 40 hours, was a good mom, started hitting the gym and lost 65 pounds, made a bunch of friends at work, etc. I was finally happy. The only problem is, I owe it all to pills. On one hand I think about all of my accomplishments, but on the other I can’t help but to think this is wrong. I steal the pills from my friends mom. I’ve been doing this for over a year and no one is the wiser. I hate sneaking around. I hate relying on a substance to make my life good. A part of me feels like if this is such a good thing, then why do I have to hide it from everyone? I don’t know what to do or how to get help. What do you think?