Hi I’m Jamie, i’ve been depressed for a few years now and I really feel like my life is pointless. I’ve not had a girlfriend for a couple of years. I have a couple of good friends but they often ditch me if they get a better offer. I never get asked out socially and feel that people only hang out with me just out of pity. I’m 18 years old and I got ok exam results but I left college because I hated it and I’ve been unemployed for about a year now. I can’t get motivated to do anything and just stay in the house playing my PS3, its the only place I feel comfortable. The only reason I’m still here is my mum. I couldn’t kill myself because I know how much it would hurt her. I’m as low as I could be. Any advice would be helpful. P.S Ive been on plenty of medication and it doesnt work… same with psychologists, etc.
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Hey Jamie,
Except for the age difference and the medication I am exactly where you are now. The whole friends ditching me thing happened ALL the time, so in the end I quit making friends and socializing all together. I never get asked out either, I could hear that it was someone’s party and I’d ask if I could come, but then would get looks that only tell me they don’t want me there.
It is hard to be motivated when you feel you’re not included in things. I know this more than anyone. Most of my life I lived in isolation. I was my own best friend for few years in school, and only towards the end of my high school year did I make a total of maybe two friends. That was how bad it was for me.
The only reason I am even sticking around is because I love my dad, my cousin and my best friend. I’ve been unemployed for two years now, but the financial strain is really beginning to get to me and mooching off my parents at my age is shameful.
I haven’t been motivated to go out to find work either, I know I should, but I just hate interacting with people.
My advice? Gosh… don’t end up like me lol. Maybe getting work can be a good distraction, I know it’s going to be difficult to start with but try to find a place to work at, and see where you can go from there. Take it one day at a time. Getting out there again is the first step really.
Go back to college. The truth is NO ONE loves studying, not only you. Spoiling yourself only worsens the situation. For the silly girlfriend thing, I know people who are 10 years older than you and have never had one and they still manage to go on.
cheers guys. I appreciate your comments
anytime jamie 🙂
I also hate living in Britain. Other teenagers my age get away with so much and cause so much hate. I wish I lived in a place with a caring community or something. Dont get anything like that in Scotland
I am the same here. I wish I lived somewhere else. But I am so antisocial being a community who checks on me and actually cares about me might make more more paranoid lol. People can be cruel anywhere even in scotland, just keep that in mind. Small towns and communities have their own resident morons and bullies.
Heck I was in public school in the city and got bullied a lot for being a book worm and keeping to myself. My mom asked me why I didn’t tell her that it got so bad, and she said she would have me changed schools, but I knew it wouldn’t make a difference, they’d still be bullies.
My point is, it’s not the place that’s the problem really, it’s the people- well at least from my experience.
yeah your right enough deadotter, thanks again. I’m assuming u r American?
Nope, I live in asia, and am asian, so I am faaarrrr away from most people here.
Ok. Good to meet you by the way. Its actually a relief to speak to someone who feels the same as me. Its quite late here so im away to sleep. I’ll write tomorrow. Bye for now
Great meeting you too Jamie, glad you stumbled upon this site. Same here, it’s great to know that you’re not alone. Have a good night’s sleep, look forward to reading more posts from you. Take care.