So this isn’t exactly a suicide story, but it adds to the turmoil I feel inside. I lie, to everyone, uncontrollably. Not a big problem, you’d think, but it is. I hurt the people I’m closest to. The only person out of my group of acquaintances at school that is actually a friend to me…if that made sense so far, has a dirty sense of humor, and can be mean to my sister, but all in all, she’s my only friend.
Anyways…I lie to her more than I lie to my parents, sister, or anyone else for that matter. I make things up about my life, what I’ve done in different situations, I lie about other people and make stuff up about them just to make things interesting.
But I really hurt her last week with me lying about what i told one sort-of-friend, about what my true friend said about my sort-of-friend. I only told her I said one thing that she told me. And eventually my sort-of-friend told her what I said to find out if she really had said that (of course gossiping and whatnot always backfires, but can you blame a teenage girl? ehem, YES) and now I’m here.
Just wanted to let it out.
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i love you
haha waaaat? another “i love you” from unbecoming? :\
=P
Wow. I lie too but not in that way. It’s too much seriously. You gotta be comfortable with who you are and the people you associate yourself with gotta accept you too. Stop lying, that’s all I can say.
And if you’re not suicidal what the hell are you doing here? This ain’t a gossip forum. This is serious.
But if you are suicidal my most sincere apologies. I may not have noticed you if you had posted some other stuff. Well hello anyways.
‘Course suicidal people tend to find this website one way or another. Eh excuse my babblin’