Always an option

I tried to get out of my life, just a no good worthless sh**. I did everything possible to get out of my family’s way, yet they think I’m doing it for myself. It may seem selfish to them, and the easy way out, but I’ve tried every other way possible. Besides, I’m a bad influence on my little sister. When I do this, they’ll be free from my me, my father, and my worthless bloodline. I’m closer and closer every day, gathering the backbone. If God is real… ah who cares, I’ve lost all emotions and ‘divine’ guidance anyway…..